My Mosaic

You've never once annoyed me by double tagging @Bow and whilst I may be busy, I do have the flavour of neurospicy that means I can drop the ball and get mixed up sometimes - close a tab here or miss a notification there. Even though it's not intentional, I know it can hurt, and that's the last thing I want to do to our members.

Mm it seems to happen a lot hey. I wonder if other clients get impacted too, sounds like you're not alone in your frustrations!!

Oh yes, spuds are best buds for tasty chicken!! Gonna do sliced, mashed, roasted, or what?

Oooh yum!! What's your go-to topping? I had cookies & cream ice cream on my waffles today. Sometimes a bit of comfort food can go a long way!! 😋

Good morning dear @Bow

Leaving some 💗💗for you hon, hoping today goes a little better

Thanks @Snowie

haven’t felt the best today. Bit queasy. Think maybe feels like my bp is a bit low too.

comm mh called today like they said they would. Gave me an appointment date to see the pdoc in a few weeks time. She then asked a heap of them usually questions and then asked if id come in for a face to face. I agreed… but now realise it’s probably gonna be a random.

im tired now.

some exciting news? We booked another cruise today. Not until the end of the year though.

@Jynx I grabbed some spuds and a small bit of pumpkin and will roast them.
my fav pancake topping is Nutella with strawberries and I even had a small piece of banana. I know you don’t like banana, I actually do, but it’s a huge fear food.

Oh and @Jynx I’m going to pick up some tiny little fluffy ginger beans next week! 3 of them!

I been umming about it for weeks. I asked a few weeks back if they had any but the only one they had was still on a bottle with overnight feeds and I can’t do that. But a post went up a few days ago and I hesitated about it. Just scared that I’ll take them and then not be able to complete the foster cause I’m too unwell or end up in hospital. But now that I have a bit more of a plan in place to do an admission for ECT once mum is back from tassie, it kinda feels like a weight has been lifted a bit. .. I don’t know, nothing has changed and things are still yuck and hard and shitty…. Yeah. So hoping this gives me a little purpose, something to do especially while mum is away etc.
they are fresh newbies, just into the shelter, so gotta be carefully isolated for 2 weeks , so maybe a week once I get them , but I’ve got a good set up downstairs and lots of hand sanitizer.

Hi @Bow

Is there anything you can do to get your bp higher again?

I'm glad mh called like they said they would. Thats very brave of you to go in for a face to face. Can your SW find out any info for you before hand?

Thats exciting about the cruise you booked hon. Where is this one to?

Think I just need to eat and drink some more @Snowie just filled my drink bottle up.

she might be able to. But it will probably just be whoever is available or whoever is on liaison. I think my SW is on an rdo Monday otherwise I’d ask her if she could come with me.

we are doing a 9 day Vanuatu and New Caledonia cruise. Mum invited my brother/sil and kids but they declined.

how r u going today?

Thats a shame your SW won't be able to go @Bow Maybe she can still find out some info on who it will be with.

That cruise sounds exciting. Something to look forward too.

Is that a good thing your brother/sil declined?

I'm just tired. Not much sleep last night plus had psych this morning via telehealth. Actually told her some truths. I come away from some appt's more tired than I went in.

Maybe she could @Snowie

yeah something to look forward to is nice. Just been looking at the available shore activities.

to be honest…. I think so! Their daughter is wild. They will have a 16mth old too. And she just complains about everything. So it will be much more relaxed.

i come away from appointments more tired too. Hope you’ve been able to relax some

Tomorrow is a hard day.
It was never meant to happen.

None of this was suppose to happen.

But it did happen.

And you were a result of it.

But then you left.

im too scared to feel the feels

it feels too overwhelming

it feels too out of control

@Bow sounds delicious! I have some difficult foods too - it's a texture thing most of the time, or bad experiences... Good job, I'm sure your body will enjoy the potassium 😋

OMG yay! Cruise and kitties, what splendid news!!

Totally think having that sense of purpose and focus is a great idea - and I fully believe that there is empowerment and protection in looking after the needs of other living beings. I know how much you get out of fostering so I'm really excited and happy for you! And a teeeensy bit jealous hehe. How many little tykes you taking on? They got names? Know what they look like? Aww this makes me giddy!! 😍

Just saw your last post too - I'm sorry that it's so hard. You got the forums fam behind you every step tomorrow ok? Sending you some hugs darlin 💜

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