My Mosaic

No doubt it is stressful @Bow Hoping your SW is there for you.

It's a hard one. How much do you tell them. You want their help so need to tell them, but at the same time they have a duty of care and you don't want to end up being placed in H.

I wish I knew the answer for you hon.

Hey @Snowie @Bow @Eve7 @Shaz51 🙂

How's everyone going tonight?

Hey @tyme how r u?

im tired. About to tuck D into bed. And trying to keep my anxiety under control… heaps anxious about pdoc appointment tomorrow

oh and I got out of the house for a bit today, first time since Monday

Thanks for the thought @tyme

I'm ok, about to head to bed. Can't stay awake

Well done on getting out of the house today. I know it mustn't've been easy seeing you having been out since Monday @Bow

I hope this tiredness allows you to rest a bit, but I hear the anxiety. Focus on your breath and hopefully that will help keep the anxiety at bay.

All the best with your appt tomorrow. Are you going yourself?

All going to plan my SW will be with me @tyme i only found out about this appointment on Friday afternoon and I immediately let my SW know. She had another supporting for the morning but said my appointment was a priority.

I wish being tired meant I slept well. Last night I had really bad restless feet. I was thrashing about for a good hour. I put some of my magnesium cream on, but that didn’t help so I stumbled around the house (cause my meds were well n truly kicked in) finding some magnesium oil. Then D was up during the night with a sore tummy.

I’m going on @tyme how about you?

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I’m going on @tyme how about you?

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Likewise @Eve7 . Such is life 🙂 Good to see you anyway. I've missed connecting with you more.

I hope you get a better sleep tonight @Bow . I can't say don't think about tomorrow, but naturally, you will.

Have you heard of worry dolls? It's from a kids book, and I used to always read it to the kids. They would make a stick doll, tell it all their worries and then put it under their pillow before going to bed. Maybe you can make some and sell them at the markets!

I am so fu€king angry so so fu€king angry

i went to my pdoc appointment just a little while ago. I felt like something was up. My original appointment was for the 25th Feb. but a couple of weeks ago my CM said it had to be changed to the 3rd March. Then on Friday I get a random call saying I had an appointment today. I questioned them about it but they said it was correct. I had fleeting thoughts that maybe it was a new pdoc but no surely my CM would let me know.

nope, I was correct. Some random new pdoc registra called my name out. I hesitated as I walked towards the doors and tried to ask questions to my SW. then I asked the same questions to the pdoc at the door… who was she. Is she new. Why didn’t anyone tell me. There was another CM in there cause mine was still away. They both made all these excuses for everything.

the pdoc then started to read through my file. Diagnosis, medication. She asks about my stimulant medication and who prescribes it and I told her that it will be her now. She immediately told me that she can’t. Oh the anger rising. She said when the service gets around to hiring another consultant then maybe they can.

nah not doing this again. They are a fu€king joke. Useless. I got up and walked out. That’s the 3rd pdoc in 6mths