My Mosaic

Glad to hear that you are safe @Bow

A walk with a friend sounds like a really good idea to me. Some self care happening. I hope you get some sunshine too. 💗

Sending lots of love @Bow and hoping you enjoy your walk 💜🤗💜

The walk was nice thanks @Eve7 @Snowie we walked through the national park to a scenic lookout. The walk itself wasn't too far, but with 4 kids in toe it took a while. It was nice to be out in the sunshine.

community mh called a little while ago, I really do not see the point in them calling? 'Are your thoughts more than just thoughts?' Yes, yes they are. 'Would you like us to call again tomorrow?' Ok. but why? What for?
What is the purpose of community mh?

I’m glad you enjoyed your walk in the National Park @Bow

Community mh ring me too. Sometimes I find them helpful, sometimes not and I’m always guarded with what I tell them but they are kind.

I hope the rest of today goes well for you.

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Your walk sounds lovely @Bow

I hear you sweety, the two times they've been involved here have been ridiculous to say the least. I feel for you. Its all very clinical and lacking any real sense of care imo. I see it as box ticking and covering their own @rses. At least that's how "ours" was. I'm sorry you are having to deal with it Bow xo

Please reach out for further support if you need it and stay safe 🙏💐💙

I'm glad you enjoyed your walk @Bow. I feel concerned that you say your thoughts are more than just thoughts. Please reach out to a crisis service such as Lifeline or Suicide Call Back Service if you are needing more immediate support today.

Take good care of yourself,

Jupiter

Yes @Eve7 @Anastasia ive never had much luck with community mh. Never found them to be overly helpful, as you said @Anastasia just ticking their boxes. I'm very guarded with what I say too @Eve7 , but obviously they didn't seem to care much when I opened up a little bit today. I have to go in and see them on Monday. Probably a waste of time.
thanks @Jupiter Will do if needed

I have to go down to community mh this morning. When they called Friday they insisted on a face to face appointment and phones calls over the weekend. I am unsure what the point is, been there before and it's not helpful. Fill in the same paperwork, get asked the same million questions and then sent on my way. Im so guarded with what I say, I don't trust them at all. I dreamt last night that I was admitted. I don't want that.

My ED is out of control at the moment. Stuck in a restricting cycle. I talked to my dietitian about it Friday, she knows the cycle, warned me that if I don't break it it will keep going. She said fluids if nothing else. Ive managed nothing else since Thursday. No food. I'm scared to break it and then lose control. I hate my ED but I hate myself more.

I feel lousy this morning. No motivation. Ive been sitting on my bed staring blankly for the last 40mins, trying to will myself to get moving and go for a walk, ive run out of time now. Wish me luck this morning. 💔

Hello @Bow I’m just dropping by to let you know I’ve been thinking about you and praying for you today.

Was your meeting helpful at all. Please check in so I know you’re safe right now.

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Thanks @Eve7 I really am in a bad place. Impulsives. So horrible.