My Mosaic

Hi @Jynx

I got double the 💜 and hugs

thanks

how you and your week?

@Bow hehe plenty more if you want em!

Not too bad, just been wearing my cranky-pants as I try to deal with bureaucracy 😑 What about you? Got stuck into any of your books?

Cranky pants and bureaucracy don’t sound fun @Jynx

same ol same ol here. Learnt from my psychologist that they aren’t filling her position straight away/if at all, when she goes on maternity leave in September. And that I can’t request to see a particular psychologist due to how the teams are set up. She asked if I could go private, umm no I can’t. Don’t have the money. So I’m pretty much gonna be without a psychologist. It’s f’ing ridiculous.
I had kinda thought that when she goes on leave I’d get someone new, someone that I really really hoped that I gel better with and I’d finally be able to work on some stuff. But no. Nothing. I’m screwed.
ive very much fallen into a hole, spiral. What’s the point????

@Bow whaaaaat that is bonkers - like absolutely no reassurance or attempt to ensure you're supported during that time? Ugh. I am sorry, what a nightmare. Is this through CMH? That they won't let you choose someone is very odd and very irritating.

I'm sure the spiral feels really slippery but you don't have to go down it like it's some slip n slide... we can cover it in honey so you get stuck. No spiralling for Bow!! Only delicious honey 😋

She said I’ve got my CM @Jynx it’s not therapy, but it’s some support. My CM can only see me fortnightly. I seen her on Wednesday and she turfed me out after 20mins cause she had to be else where.

they don’t care. Couldn’t give two hoots. I was more honest with her this week. I was disappointed last week after she asked the two questions when I told her my SI is much worse- when? And means? And cause I said no to both she moved on. I was angry with her cause it’s been so distressing. This week when the topic came up I told her what I had… and nothing. Last time I fessed up I had the team at my door later that day.

and yeah, this is Comm mh. And they really couldn’t give a rats. Maybe just one less person on their books to deal with.

@Bow be nice if they could stop giving you hoops to jump through. And like, stop lighting them on fire first.

Have you thought about making a formal complaint - to the service as a whole? Talk about the inconsistency, the lack of reassurance, how none of it is trauma-informed, and how it's leaving you high n dry without sufficient support? I know that's a whole extra task for already overwhelmed brain but sometimes you gotta go over peoples heads...

What are you up to over the weekend hun?

Really should have kept a record of all the epic stuff ups on their part eh @Jynx but I guess you don’t really expect for there to be epic stuff up after stuff up.
I mean I can think of a couple of things, but there has been so many. And would it actually get me anywhere??

this weekend… not much. Market tomorrow has been cancelled cause the grounds are too wet, with more rain on the way. Mum wants to go to bunnings, I said ok as long as we can do the op shops near it.
gonna do some more furniture painting. And I need to clean up a bit. I got like craft projects and supplies spread throughout the living and dining room.

@Bow hard to say whether it would get you anywhere... but just from the 'other side's perspective', they won't know their ways of working are harmful if no one speaks up about them. And maybe if more people in the org know that this has left you feeling (more unstable, uncared for, etc - I don't want to presume your feelings, they're yours!) they might be more inclined to do something to support you better!

But maybe a conundrum for another day?

Noooo too squelchy!! I hope the Bunnos trip is okay and you find some gems in the op shops!! Maybe a sausage sanga on the journey? lol

Ooooh how is the furniture restoration going? Haha yeah cleaning... me and you both 😅

Oh I will most definitely be telling anyone who will listen there how angry I am about this situation and so will my SW. I have a pdoc appointment next week and he will be the first one to hear it @Jynx

next time I see my CM she is due to do a home visit and my SW is gonna pop in and make sure my CM is aware of our concerns.

Furniture restoration…. I gave the tv unit an undercoat during the week and then yesterday went to give it a coat of the paint I had picked but it didn’t go on very well, so went and bought some different paint this morning and painted it but I’m not too keen on the colour. So might need to play around with some colours and mix something else. But I got the wall paper for the tv unit drawers and did one today and I am totally loving it.

I made a junk journal today from a golden circle book. Love how it turned out. Will have to take some pics tomorrow and show you.

@Bow noice!! You show em!! Teeth bared and no backing down, eh? 💪😎

And props to your SW, glad you got that extra support. Maybe you two can make a list together of what you wanna cover!

Wallpaper...IN drawers? Huh... smart cookie, that would look cool!

Aww cute, yes please do share!! Hmm wish I had some creative stuff to share. I have been tryna put together a spiderweb chain belt but it's very finnicky!