My Mosaic

Thanks @Snowie it was good to see her. Something to think about in aiming to get out of here ASAP. I've done some painting today and managed a very short nap inbetween their 30min checks... always get disturbed.
how are you doing?

@Bow when I was in the psych ward it was my kids that kept me going, wanting to get out of there asap.

Well done for doing some painting today. Hopefully that has helped get through the day too.

It is hard when they do their checks, I find that they are never quiet 🤔 Hopefully you can get some rest at least.

I am okish, have been a bit off the last few days but trying to deal with a lot at the moment. Hoping it will ease the next few days.

Yeah they are never quiet, loud knock and then they open the door and saying 'just doing my rounds'.

it's been 15yrs since I have been in here @Snowie its triggered a lot of horrible memories for me. I use to be a frequent Flyer over a 3yr period. I want this to be my one and only stay this time. Need to get out for my daughter. I've lost count of how many times I've been asked today by different nurses if I have any si thoughts. 🤦🏼‍♀️

Im sorry things have been hard for you. Hugs

They never are quiet @Bow They seem to like to use a lot of noise.

I hope for your and your daughters sake that you are not in there for too long hon.

I can understand not wanting to be in there for long and wanting it to be your one and only stay.

I normally just say no to SI thoughts, unless I feel comfortable with the nurse/doctor. It is hard sometimes to be honest with them. I am lucky I see my pdoc this week coming up and have a good relationship with him, so will be able to tell him exactly where I am. I just have to wait till Thursday.

Thats exactly what you need to do right now @Bow ... hold on tight to all thats dear to you. And your D is the most special thing you can have in your life 👍💝

@Bow

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I'm so very tired today and feel really flat. I didn't sleep well last night. The beds are horrible. Mattress is so hard and is that horrible thick plastic covering... I get it, some people would try and destroy them. Everything is made out of that thick horrible plastic. But sigh. Makes for a horrible night sleep. Feeling emotional. Need to hold it together cause I don't want my daughter to see me like this.

my Mum is on her way in with my daughter. And my friend... ex pastor is going to try and play the pastors card and come for a pastoral visit. Fingers crossed they let her in.
I haven't eaten since Thursday morning. I'm so anxious to eat here. It all messes with my head

Sending lots of love, support and prayers @Bow

I won’t tell you to eat but I will say I understand and I’m sorry it’s hard to sleep in there.

Sitting with you right now.

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Thanks @Eve7

how are you doing?

A bit of a rough day @Bow

How’s itbeen for you?