My Mosaic

Yep roof over our head first…. Then other life admin @tyme

Gotta now get ready for my psychologist appointment….. 😩

I remembered last night that she asked me to do some home work…. Like…. This map of what a spiral looks like for me… what happens, my thoughts, my feelings, my actions and it snakes all over a piece of paper and then over the next page cause it was so long. We did one last time I seen her. Then look at various places that I could step in and stop the spiral. It’s certainly interesting to look at it… even to write it on paper. I didn’t actually get to finish it cause I got to the steep spiral and started to spiral again! 🌀

when do you leave again @tyme ?

I hope your psych went ok @Bow

Thanks @Snowie it went ok. I talked a bit about how I hate and get overwhelmed and annoyed when as soon as I walk in the door mum is at me with… ‘do we keep this?’ …. Or… ‘I found some more houses… what about this one?’

And literally as soon as I walked in the door just now she said ‘I found another house.’ In my appointment we talked about what I can do…. What I could say. And I decided that I would say to mum, can I just have half hour to chill. And I said that to her and she replied… ‘can I just tell you?’ URGH 😩

no no. Just give me a few minutes to… Fark I’ve just had a therapy session.

she does not understand. She has never had therapy.

😩🥺

see this is where the spiral will start.

hope your having a better day than me!??

@Bow getting bombarded as soon as you walk in the door is hard. My mum does it to me too.

Sometimes we just need that time to unwind from a therapy session. The therapy sessions can make us so exhausted, we just need to give our brains a rest.

Sounds like she didn't give you that time to just chill.

I hope the spiral doesn't com hon.

I got lots accomplished this morning. Was feeling good about getting so much done, then had a big fight with mum🤦‍♀️

Have you got much more on today?

Sorry you had a fight with your mum @Snowie

just more packing. The house we looked at Tuesday and applied for, the property manager called this morning. She said our application is perfect, rental ledger and references were great, it’s just our affordability.
it really sucks. I don’t know how anyone can get approval for a rental these days. They all have this general rule that your rent shouldn’t be anymore than 30% of your income. Which is absolutely crazy in this rental market!
So she wanted to know more about our incomes, especially like what we make at markets etc. we both have some savings, mum has heaps from my step dads super payout- but said what if something happens and those savings aren’t there tomorrow.
So she was going to try and tweak things a little, then speak with her manager and then it just comes down to the landlord. It’s ultimately their decision. Maybe they will offer it to us but on a short lease to start with.
So every finger and toes is crossed! We all liked this one and I’ve already started imagining it being our home.
@tyme @Jynx @rav3n

It was more of her complaining about all the things I do wrong @Bow

In the end I told her to go live with her son and walked away.

A cuppa and some quiet time helping.

It is so hard to get into the rental market these days. I hope everything comes back ok and the landlord approves you for it. Where I live there is a big demand for rentals and just not enough around.

@Jynx Hope your ok!? Miss seeing you around forumland

I’m so tired. Exhausted. Like deep within and in my soul. And there doesn’t feel like there is any reprieve on the horizon. My face is sore tired. My neck and back is sore tired. Feeling the tension in my shoulders. My bad shoulder is extra sore tonight.
I am overwhelmed with responsibilities that seems to be all falling on me.

TW: ED

Ggggrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr that just makes me even more angry 😡 😡😡😡😡😡🤬🤬🤬🤬