My Mosaic

Hey @Bow, it sounds to me like you've done some incredibly brave things recently. Putting yourself out there is a very vulnerable and scary thing, but also very brave as I said, and I'm so pleased for you that you were able to work up that courage. Hearing your exhaustion also. Not wanting to fight anymore when it seems like you've been fighting for so long makes complete sense. There's a lot going on. It's ok to struggle with that. But please don't hesitate to reach out if what you're experiencing starts to feel too overwhelming- it sounds like the Butterfly Foundation were helpful for you, which is great, and there's also the Suicide Callback Service or Sane's Helpcentre is open until 10pm this evening if you'd just like to speak to someone 1:1 non-urgently. Wishing you strength to do whatever feels right for you.

@Bow none of what you are saying is silly or wrong, I hear you and I get it. To me it sounds like you have comes long way from where you were? Baby steps and achievable goals. You'll get there. Be firm that you needweekly appointments Bow, it's not shameful and you're definitely not a failure. I see you as a winner because you are trying to get help. Sh, *sigh I hear you I don't have much advice. My boy does too and when we talk about it I try to understand why but I really can't fully understand because I'm not him if that makes sense? I'm sorry. I don't think any less of you or anyone who does. If anything my heart breaks that there is that much internal pain. I'm sorry Bow. Something to continue to work on with your pdoc hunny because you are worth it.

such horrible anxiety tonight it doesnt feel ok

why does today have to be so flipping hard

Hi @Bow sounds like things are tough for you again, please remember your saftey plan and the support around you. You've got this, you have done it before. Reach out to the supports mentioned should things escalate for you. Please take care of yourself

Anyone around?

Good morning @Bow @Anastasia

Hoping both of your days go ok for you and there is some goodness in them.

Lots and lots of love and hugs 💌💌💌

Feeling extremely fragile today. Things spiralled so badly and quickly last night. 000 were called. I am at a loss today. I can't keep living like this. Life is too hard.

Hi @Bow

Sorry to hear things are not great. Is there some slef care you can do for yourself. A warm bath, hot shower, watch a movie, read a book.

I am just about to go and have a shower then have a cuppa for some self care.

@Snowiei just want to crawl into a ball and cry. I do not have the energy or the will to do anything else.
how can I keep going like this?