My Mosaic

Weighted sloth! So cute @Bow that sounds very snug and comforting (hopefully)

I don’t know if this thing works but it’s like the universes scheming against me when the spiral is quick and deep And not ok

Oh no @Bow I'm sorry things are feeling spirally. Sitting with you hun 💜

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Will flick through email in a hot tick @Bow 💜

Hi @Jynx ? (No need to be filled with dread I will try not to take too much of your time tonight)

@Bow dread? Filled with? Literally never hun. Not once!

You get off to sleep ok last night? Or a rough one was had?

Sometimes I sit and need to post but think y’all would be like fffffaaaarrrkkkk not her again. What’s wrong this time????

took me ages to get to sleep @Jynx resulted in doing stuff that filled me with lotsa shame. And I haven’t had the best day either.

but was able to text my support worker some of what was happening last night and she came for a home visit. Stayed nearly 2hrs! Gotta eat dinner but if ya got an ear later I’d like to share

Literally doesn't happen @Bow lol not with you, not with anyone. And like I know the very nature of me being in a professional role here means that there's always an underlying sense of 'well they have to say that!' but nah. And like, I have definitely experienced dread about work before (not here) - dreading going to work is on my list of signs to look out for for burnout!! But the community here (yourself included ofc!) is always just sooooo lovely to be amongst. I often joke that I found a unicorn job - to find something I enjoy this much just feels exceedingly rare and downright magical!!

Oh wow that ramble got away from me lol.

Sorry to hear the night ended up that way hun, I hope you've been super gentle with yourself. And a home visit, that's so kind! That hasn't really happened much before has it?

Oook…. but you gotta say that, but no ok I appreciate that reassurance @Jynx im glad you enjoy your job so much. It is very unique.

I actually talked with my support worker about you today. She tries to do a home visit once a week.

Was explaining to her all that happened yesterday, think she genuinely was trying to understand how a flashback can spiral me so quickly into a really bad state.

She later asked me if I see a pattern in my bad days and I mentioned that weekend’s are often rough cause I don’t have my usual supports but then mentioned sane. I’m usually pretty hesitant in mentioning it cause I fear being found I guess. But I told her all about it and what y’all do and I told her how ya supported me last night.

we talked heaps about my ED, some of the experiences I’ve had, especially in hospital.