We are headed into the city this morning. Daughter is very excited, nagging about what time we are leaving. Still have a few things to pack before we will get going. This has been a good incentive for good behaviour the last couple of days as I have warned her that she will stay home if she can't do what she is asked. She has been arguing a lot recently, I've been really struggling with it, she is stubborn like me.
Yesterday my psychologist's office called with a cancellation, I had just over an hours notice, I accepted the appointment as I don't have another one booked until may, but my anxiety hit me as soon as I got off the phone, I need time to mentally prepare for any kind of appointment like that. But I went. I really do struggle to talk. To find the words and not feel ashamed about what I am feeling or feel stupid.
I have been eating a little bit better the last couple of days, want to have the strength while we are away and not be worrying about whether I will pass out. I feel incredibly uncomfortable eating something at most meals, but trying to distract and push through that. Will maybe find somewhere nice to go eat tomorrow for my birthday.
my pastors are back next week, they are slowly making their way back home. It will be good to see them, I have missed them a lot. But think they are only home for a little while before they hit the road again 😞
guess I should get moving, d is still nagging.
love you all
Bow
