My Mosaic

oh no, so sorry you're struggling with SH @Bow when you feel the urges, are there any other coping techniques that help? like holding ice cubes or running a cold shower?

ahh hope she's still not in a mood from yest... hopefully she'll join you next time. what are you watching on tv?

Nah @rav3n I’ve tried all those other alternatives many many times and nothing really helps.

no she’s over her mood from last night and I haven’t had any constant nagging for extra time on electronics today. We eventually had a talk last night about it. It won’t last though…. It’s a never ending battle unfortunately.
I was watching neighbors. Now I’m watching some British ambulance series. I just wanna go to bed

i'm glad you've given strategies a try @Bow tv seems to be a good distraction for now.

that's really great that you've both been able to talk about it. i can definitely relate to the battle with my mum as well, it will get better though.

oh British ambulance show sounds interesting - is this a drama or reality show? oh i also was wondering, is your mum going on the Tasmania cruise just for fun? have you been before?

I’ve tried so many different things @rav3n sometimes it’s just delaying the inevitable

parenting is hard. Even harder with mental health stuff. I try though. It’s certainly very far from what I imagined and dreamt it to be.

the ambulance show was a reality show. I lost interested and watched the end of task master. I like that show.

we are originally from tassie. My older brother is still there. His got terminal cancer so mum goes over as much as she can. We’ve been in Sydney for just over 20yrs…. Been here longer than I lived in tassie now. My dad has recently moved back to tassie so that is good for my brother.

i know that trying so many different things and not finding something that works can feel discouraging @Bow i still have hope that there's new strategies out there that will come your way. every little step forward, every inch of progress matters so much more than you know.

i'm not a parent myself but hearing my mum talk about her experience, she's said similar things to you. it's okay if it isn't what you expected, and over time, there'll be those rewarding moments too. it's your first time experiencing motherhood and learning too.

task master is so good!! i've watched bits here and there, love that show.

sorry to hear about your brother, glad he's got your dad with him as well for support. i've never been to Tasmania, do you prefer Syd now?

Hey @Bow

I think you have your art group today? If so I hope it goes well hon.

Hoping today is a little easier for you.

Sending lots of 💗💗

Yeah I had my art group today @Snowie i nearly wasn’t gonna go. Didn’t wanna get out of bed again and have to face the world. Didn’t take calls from either of my old or new SW, just didn’t wanna talk, feeling so low. But my old SW kept buzzing and texting, so I called her back eventually. She was concerned about me, I told her I ain’t ok. She did all the usual check in questions and then asked if I was gonna come to group. She encouraged me and said to come in earlier and we could chat. So dragged myself outta bed and had a super quick shower and went down.

I fessed up to the things I have been doing or not doing. I didn’t look well apparently. I don’t feel good.

participated…. Actually lead art group, don’t know how I did it really. Explained what we were doing super quick and then just let everyone do their thing. Thankfully it was a pretty easy craft… and everyone kept saying how much they loved it. Will finish them off next week. I think I then have one art group left before we leave and I said we would do watercolour Christmas cards.

my old and new SW pulled me aside for a while to do a proper check in with me and to do a bit of a handover I guess. I appreciated that. They assured me that although my old SW was not in that position anymore, she’ll still be around. She is basing herself out of our office, but she will be overseeing 6 teams (!!!!) and will visit 2 other offices. She said I can still call and come in and see her if I need/want. Which is nice, but she will be busy and I don’t wanna burden her.

its still hot here today. But we are in for a cool… and wet change, including rain Friday when our twilight market is 😭

how’s your day been @Snowie ?

hi @rav3n @Jynx if your around this arvo

Hiya @Bow wow, really big day!! Maaaad props to you for pushing through to run the art class, sounds like it was super successful!

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She said I can still call and come in and see her if I need/want. Which is nice, but she will be busy and I don’t wanna burden her.

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Nahhh I reckon that she actively wants you to check in!! Like think about it - if she thought of you as burdensome, why on earth would she make an offer like this? Like if she actually felt burdened by you she'd have been like 'ope, I don't have to work with Bow anymore that's someone else's job now'. But she didn't!! She took the time to reassure you that she isn't completely out of reach. So don't treat her like she is!! Just my two cents anyway.

You excited/ready for the twilight market?

Feels real hard to take on anything good/positive at the moment @Jynx everythings just feeling shitty and yuck and bad.

I just spent the last hour or so on my bedroom floor pulling all my stock out, taking some photos, making sure they got all the right stickers and stuff on them, packed my 3 boxes to take on Friday, the 4th box’s has all my doubles and extra stock in it. Wrote everything down too. Think I’m mostly ready. Just got all my fingers crossed the rain stays away.

how’s your day been?

@Bow maybe today is just a crappy, yucky day, and that's ok. Perhaps you could do something to treat yourself tonight?

Sounds like you run a tight ship!! Oh true, do you have contingency plans for if it does get all rainy?

Day has been pretty chill so far, except for waking up, stepping out of my room, and landing in cat piss 😑 I have decided Razz probably needs to be more of an outdoor cat because I do NOT have the patience to keep scrubbing pissy carpets and having to hand wash all my clothes! (I don't have a washing machine, and she pisses on those too, smh)