My Mosaic

Hey @Bow ,

Nah, it's okay. I don't mind not doing what the other women were doing. I've been with the church since I was 8 years old. I've sat in every Bible Study under the sun. I've been taking youth groups and Sunday school since I was in my teens, so I'm pretty okay with it. They are like my family.

Hence when you said your church friends were moving, I can see how it can impact you as I can relate to it.

I've never heard of MOPs. What's that?

I'm so glad to hear that your daughter is better today and that you are going to the country fair tomorrow. Sounds so exciting! I hope she stays well! Good to hear your SW popped by today.

Sitting with you at this time.

Why does something seemingly so small send me into such a huge spiral???

Hey @Bow ,

What's happening?

Are you okay?

My SW mentioned the whole change of SW thing that they do there. She said I’m not changing now, but soon. Tried to hide the immediate anxiety I felt. I’ve spiraled fast this arvo.
And now I need to some how bring up the whole thing with my sick cat to my mum. I feel sick. I can’t make him suffer anymore @tyme

Oh @Bow ,

I'm sorry... it must be so hard for you.

As I read your post, I remembered the time when there was a change in my support person... I was DEVASTATED. My gut dropped. I felt cold and numb.

To this day, I remember the horrible feeling, and guess that you may be feeling something similar right now.

It's not easy. I hear that. We only spoke about how it is supposed to be short term support and maybe that's why they want to change people around. Sometimes, fresh support can be helpful. Yet I'm not going to deny that change is hard.

As for your cat. I'm so sorry. It sounds like a very hard moment for you. Know you are the best cat mum any cat could possibly have.

Sitting with you tonight.

Yeah I’m devastated at the thought of having to change SW @tyme I need one consistent support. Urgh don’t wanna talk about it. Too much to deal with.

yep. My cat. Had a chat with mum tonight. Need to figure out when I can take him in 🥺 I don’t even wanna do that.

there are things that as an adult, they are difficult to do. Difficult to even make the decision to do. But the added difficulties with having a mental illness on top of it all. Just like my capacity to even make the decision. And then to work up the courage to have conversations with people about it. To then having to make phone calls, appointments and then to talk to people there. It’s bloody hard. It should have been done days ago. I have made him suffer far longer than he should. And for that I feel utterly terrible.

Awwww Hugs @Bow

I'm here for you.

I won't go too much into anything as I recognise it is tough for you right now.

I just want to keep this space open to you for whatever you want to share.

@Bow , I'm not staying online, but wanted to give you a fleeting hello to let you know I'm thinking of you today.

Thanks @tyme you’re probably offline now. I’ve just collapsed into bed. I’m utterly exhausted. We had our monthly country market today and it was super busy. Then rushed home to drop mum off so she could have a rest cause she’s still not feeling 100%. Then d had a birthday party to attend, they did bowling and arcade games. It was at our local mall, so I wandered the shops while she was at the party. Then home to unpack the car from market.

@Jynx ?
I called our vet this morning. Taking my poor ginger boy in tomorrow 🥺 I’m so sad