My Mosaic

Hi @Bow

I just want you to know that you are worthy of help, and there are people out there who want to help. Your support team wants to help, even if sometimes they're not helpful, like your CM today.

I hear a lot of ways that you feel let down by your supports, and I'm really sorry to hear that they're not coming through for you in the way that you're needing right now. While reading, I am wondering what sort of support you do need right now. Like if you were to wave your magic wand and be receiving the support you need, what would that look like, what would be different?

I don’t even know what the answer to that is @Ru-bee I don’t know what help looks like anymore.
I don’t wanna be dismissed anymore. Don’t wanna be invalidated. No more ‘she’ll be ok’ attitude.
I don’t know

hey @Bow

looks like you have a strong idea of what type of attitude you want from your supports - i'm assuming your SW meets this criteria - is there anyone else in your support team who meets this too? is it just your CM and psych who you feel are dismissive?

Not really 😩😩😩

oh noo that sucks!! @Bow do you reckon finding a new CM and psych would be better for you?

when i switched psych's it was really refreshing to start over and get a different perspective from them. maybe some change can bring you a step closer to finding someone who supports you the way you prefer?

Nah @rav3n

my CM and psych are through community mh. I’ve been with them for years which I am really grateful for, cause it’s all free. So is my pdoc. I had an amazing psych for a couple of years with them, but she left (she’s co- facilitating my schema group at the moment) that was may last year. So new psych then.
then I got a new CM the beginning of this year when my old one went on mat leave. She was useless too.
I got a new pdoc this year too.

lotsa change with no control over.

ohhh i see! that's really great that you've had some good experiences with the previous psych - do you get to talk to your old psych much during the schema group?

yep that is a lot of change @Bow! i can see how frustrating that must be, having to rebuild new relationships and re-develop trust with new people. that takes a lot of strength Bow, i can see how hard you're working on this.
is your SW new as well?

I get to chat with her a little bit @rav3n and I’ve had some one on ones when no one else turns up. But not a great deal of time.

All the changes have been really hard. And it’s really hard when I have no control over any of it…. And no real say on who I want to support me with comm mh.

my SW…. I’ve had for a year. I had another one previously, but she recognized that I had a better rapport with my current one so she changed me over. The organization actually really pushes for regular changes in SW, like every 3 months. I fought to keep my SW, wrote a 2 page letter about why consistency was important for me, was originally knocked back but got heard by the senior manager who said I could keep my SW.

anyways, that’s that

thanks for sharing with me @Bow i really appreciate it. having to change SW regularly and having to fight hard for consistency sounds exhausting, i'm really glad that the senior manager was able to support your request 😊

despite all that change, i'm so proud of you for self-advocating!!!

do you have any self-care activities planned for tonight? watching the hunted still?

Sorry fell asleep @rav3n but yes we are still watching hunted.

my arts and craft group got cancelled for today 😩 another day to try and keep myself busy