My Mosaic

Oh dear @Bow ... I feel for you so very much. For the impossibly hard decisions you've needed to make. For the wrongs that have been imposed upon you. For all those understandable feelings about the being you have chosen to keep. For that part of you that died that night.

You are dealing with so much Bow. You should be incredibly proud of yourself for coming through all that. For still standing! Still fighting!

You are so brave .. so stoic. I am confident that with any decisions you make ... you can make them work.

Emelia 💝

@Bow You're holding so much, so much more than one person should have to. I know you are tired and that resisting those urges can be so hard.
I wonder if there's a part of you that is posting here as a way to hold off on SH, to not give in to the urges. I hope you can listen to that part of yourself. Please remember that you don't deserve to be alone in this.
I'm signing off for tonight but another mod will be along soon, feel free to tag them if you need. My thoughts are with you.

ive not been strong enough tonight to fight it. The noise was too loud. I'll go now.

You are in my thoughts and my prayers tonight @Bow

Emelia 💝

Good morning @Bow

Hoping today goes a little better for you hun. You are in my thoughts sweetie 💕💕

Why am I crying again? The crushing inside feels... I don't even have words loud noises roaring in my head. Alone terrible alone making a mess giving in to the fighting

I'm sorry for what I've done

I'm sorry too @Bow ... not so much for what you may have done ... but more because you felt you needed to, or thought you had no alternative. I'm sorry you dont have the real life support that you clearly need. I'm wondering now Bow if you may need medical assistance? Please ... if you do, make sure you seek it asap.

Can you tell me how your picnic with your daughter went yesterday? And how about the markets which you were responsible for this morning?

A big hug coming your way. And know that I'm sitting with you right now. I'm here if you feel the need to talk.

Emelia 🤗💕

I called

Well done @Bow ... allow them to help you now, because you cannot keep going through this as you have been lately. You need help to get through, and the help is there. Proud of you for making that call. When things settle down ... I would appreciate hearing from you, so I know that you are safe. 💝