My Mosaic

I’m not getting notifications either @Snowie

think I’ll just go can’t guarantee anything tonight

thnks

Hi @Bow

I hope you get this.

Hoping you got some sleep last night and today goes well.

Have you got anything planned for today with D, or just a quiet day at home?

Sending lots of 💗💗

I’ve had a rough day. Did my usual morning routine, and then this afternoon d and I went to church. We don’t usually have afternoon church, but we had a combined service with another relating local church with some international visitors. There were a lot of people, and the music was extra loud. And I had a panic attack. It was dreadful 😩 I spent the rest of the service standing at the door. Beating myself up now. This is what I have done to myself by isolating myself so much.

I climbed into bed when I got home. Got up briefly for some dinner, forcing some soup down and now I am back in bed again.

Hey @Bow ,

I'm sorry you had a bit of a struggle today. At the same time, I want to acknowledge the effort it took to go to church today. Good on you.

I hear it's hard today. I hope you can do something nice for yourself tonight.

Hugs

Just want the day gone @tyme have allowed myself to spiral tonight and I’m hiding in bed

Awwww @Bow ,

I'm so sorry to hear. We just finished out Sunday Hangout. Do you think you'd be interested in joining us in the future? We'd love to have you.

I hear how hard loneliness can be. Hugs @Bow

I’ve tried chat a few times @tyme its just too much for me, don’t cope, can’t keep up.

😩😩

Hey @Bow ,

NO stress. It's just an option. It's not for everyone. We are looking at doing a few different things so people have a choice as to what they want to participate in.

We are here for you.

tyme

I sure hope that I can walk out of my schema therapy group real soon and not fall apart. It took me 1 1/2hrs to drive a normal 20 min drive home. It’s so taxing on my emotions. I had to pull over and get myself together cause I was not coping and it wasn’t safe for me to keep driving. I’d usually call and speak with my SW but she was away today.

Today we did a role play (shudders) thankfully we came up with scripts before hand and just read off of a piece of paper. But it was still hard. But it was a good example of how our coping modes protect our vulnerable child from the inner critic, and also how the coping modes can block the healthy adult from the vulnerable child too.

Then we came up with healthy adult responses for all the different modes. I had nothing to contribute cause I struggle so much to hear my healthy adult self.

They didn’t do a grounding exercises at the end, which was feedback I gave them weeks ago and they said they would do them. 😩 Makes me feel not heard. Not part of the group (they went around at the beginning and asked how everyone was, but they didn’t ask me). Talk about triggering my inner critic before we have even started.