My Mosaic

Maybe @Snowie

just my pdoc appointment, that’s al really. I do have an appointment in my phone with my CM but I don’t really remember that.,,, so who knows. I’ve had zero contact with her…. Maybe she’ll attend my pdoc appointment?

I’ve crash abit 😩😩😩

Just something to think about @Bow I know even just having my prn available makes it hard at times.

Hopefully you can get some down time before/after your pdoc appt. I know just an appt. can take a lot out of us and make us exhausted.

Are you back in bed?

Not yet @Snowie

@just watching some tv. But have just taken my meds and hope to be in bed real soon. Want today to be over. Feel guilty always going to bed early and leaving my mum to put D to bed.

having a lot of not so ok thoughts

No need to feel guilty hon, sometimes you have to put your first. Having your meds and going to bed might be the safest thing for you @Bow

I'm sure your mum doesn't mind at all. Some Nan grand daughter time is always nice.

I'm sorry about those thoughts hon. They are hard to handle and even harder to sit with.

Just popping in briefly to say hi @Snowie @Bow and send some hugs to you both🫂🫂 before I sign off for the evening. I'm sorry the thoughts are so loud and unpleasant for you Bow, they are indeed difficult to sit with. You are not your thoughts though, no matter how intense or convincing they seem.

Always warms me to see how much compassion and care the two of you have for each other 😊💜

Thanks @Jynx I hope you have a nice evening.

We are all in this together

Thanks @Snowie @Jynx

ive just crawled into bed so gonna say goodbye

Goodnight hon @Bow

I hope your pdoc appt. goes ok

Talk tomorrow 💕

Seen pdoc this morning. He was running late, and lots of people coming and going in the waiting room was really overwhelming. One of the girls that attended my new schema therapy groups came in. I’m not sure if she recognized me though. She sat in the same area and I overheard her talking…. And then who comes in and calls out her name… my old psych. All sorts of things going round in my head. Why is she seeing patients here????? Why didn’t she keep seeing me????? 😩😢 that put me in a mood.
pdoc got approval back for me to start stimulants. I’ve gotta reduce one of my meds tomorrow and then start the new med Saturday morning. Pdoc said to be mindful…. Stimulant might pick my energy and motivation levels up but if my thoughts are still really bad it could be a bad combination. So SW and CM keeping in touch regularly. Gotta go have my blood pressure checked on Tuesday too.
gosh I hope this medication helps. Really don’t wanna go through ECT again.
@Snowie @Jynx

Hey @Bow ,

Thank you for sharing. I'm totally hearing you in terms of all the questions regarding why the pdoc is seeing others but not you. Would you consider asking?

I hope things get well with you. It's good that they have warned you to be mindful with the medication change.

Is there a safety plan in place for if things get out of hand?

Hugs to you @Bow