My Mosaic

I hope the group feels a bit better as it goes on @Snowie it goes for 25 weeks and that’s an awfully long time to sit in that uncomfortable place. But I really want to give it a go, just hope it doesn’t become a barrier.

I’m sorry your day hasn’t been great. I hope your appointment tomorrow is helpful for you.

I hope I did not offend you in my comments @Jynx

social isolation and comparison was my biggest fears going into the group. I didn’t actually think of the comparison that has ended up being difficult for me, I thought body size would be hard.,. And yes, it has been, cause everyone else is much smaller. Have to keep reminding myself that I have just as much right to be there as everyone else and ED come in all sizes.

I think it’s going to be a very gentle group. Which I like. I didn’t feel any pressure to share. Which I really like. And we can get up and leave at any time if we need a break. And yes, think the facilitator are very receptive to how we are going.

im feeling a bit tired and a bit vulnerable and emotionally exposed. I’m looking forward to crawling into bed tonight. And maybe having a bit of a download with my SW tomorrow. She had today off.

how’s your day?

Thats a long time for a group to go for @Bow Just seeing it out will be an achievement within itself.

I'm glad you have a few supports in it however.

I feel like if tomorrows session doesn't help than then what. Where do I go from there. Sorry should be thinking positive. At least I have a psych and a good one at that.

It is a long time @Snowie! I was a bit shocked and a bit hmmm… apprehensive about the long commitment. But they did say there will be weeks where it’s cancelled (Monday is often a day for a public holiday, they both have holidays booked, and are both mothers so may need to cancel- sounds like if one of them is away they won’t run it by themselves).

I hope you’re able to give your psych what you have written down and you can be honest and work at problem solving together.

i have a headache brewing I think. Wondering if it’s medication related or caffeine related… or just random. I woke this morning feeling a bit headachy and I got the pillow from my spikey mat out and lay in bed with that. It helped.

Still a long time @Bow for a group. It's good if they have formed a bit of a team and only run it together. Maybe if someone needs a bit of a time out with one of them, then they have the other one to still run the group.

I hope you headache eases. Do you have much to do tonight or can have time in bed?

It's just a piece of paper, I should be able to just hand it over easily. If only it was that easy.

@Bow nope not offended at all, I was just making a comparison! You already said it wasn't something you have any issues with, just that you felt a bit like an outsider, and I think that's very valid.

Yeah you go girl! Way to validate yourself, you absolutely deserve to be there! And that is something that might be really helpful to talk about - how invalidating it has felt to not be believed or to be judged because you 'don't look anorexic' - which is of course ridiculous.

Aww yay, that sounds super accessible, and super understanding of people's needs. And yeah feeling emotionally exposed makes sense hun, I know the feeling well. Be super gentle with yourself tonight eh? You took a big plunge today 💜

Nah nothing on tonight @Snowie @just watching some tv. I’ll go crawl into bed soon I think.

I think I sat holding a lot of tension in my shoulders in group today, so achy and think that’s where my headache is coming from. Urgh.

you can do it tomorrow. I sometimes write stuff down and have it in my hand while waiting. My psych will see it and know I have something for her… instead of building up the courage to find it in my bag and pull it out.

Thanks @Jynx …. For understanding!

yeah maybe if it comes up it would be the perfect place to talk about it. I really don’t know what the rest of the sessions will look like.

I’d really like to go crawl into bed already!

Bed sounds good to me @Bow

Won't be long out of it either. Late night last night and up early this morning.

Having it in my hand whilst waiting would be a good idea. If it is in my bag, I just might not hand it over. We discussed last session what we need to talk about this session so a bit anxious about that. Time to put my big girl pants on!

Of course @Bow, I knew what you meant 😉

Yeah I bet, bed would be beckoning you after such a big day! Hope you can snuggle in and doze off soon hun, lots of rest is needed after big, emotionally charged days!