My Mosaic

I am annoyed at the lack of support in the public system @Bow . I know there is some support but it is often too little too late.

I just watched Peter Garrett on Australian Story which was very interesting. Some people really do overcome a lot in life but I think stability in early childhood is a key to how we face trauma in later life.

Cute kitties!
do your cats keep you awake of a night @Jynx ? I like the idea of cat snuggles of a night, but they keep me awake! Especially when they clean themselves

I chatted with my dietitian today about the group, it will be my first time meeting others with EDs and while it’s kinda comforting it’s also really scary!
not sure when the intake will be but it starts sometime in April. I have my next appointment with my dietitian on the 2nd so we are going to talk more about it then too. It goes for 25 weeks though. Huge commitment! Long time to keep myself well!

@Bow not always, but from time to time they'll wake me. Mainly it's the morning when it's time for brekky and for them to be let outside!!

Yeah it would be scary! But I know you can do it - you have it in you. This might be exactly what you've been looking for to help you shake things up, throw off the shackles of the habitual cycles, and forge a new path!!

I'm off for tonight, I hope that you go okay with your potassium and stuff tonight. Chat tomorrow hun, take care of your wonderful self 💜🫂

Thinking of you @Bow hoping things go better for you today then yesterday.

Sending lots of love and hugs 💌💌

I spent the night in the ED getting my potassium levels back up. It was a very long night and I didn’t sleep at all. Potassium burns and really hurts when ran at the full rate for me, so I had to ask them to slow it down, so took twice as long. My repeat bloods this morning showed my levels are still a little bit low but they sent me home on oral meds.

I read my discharge summary this morning and was so angry and frustrated. It said nil chest pain, well hydrated. I don’t know how many different people I told that both those things were an issue, but no one treated me for either.

I’ve napped on and off all day. I’m heaps tired. My heart still races, which bothers me. But I’m on my own now.

Hi @Bow

Glad you got some sleep today to make up for last night. I know it will never compare but at least you got a little bit.

I'm sorry they didn't look into all your issues. It really does make you feel like no one was listening.

Please know you are not alone, we are in this with you.

I know the feeling well @Bow of walking away from a medical visit with nought but a 'clean slate' to show, whilst I still sit there confused, anxious, and not at all reassured because I still feel ick/sore/weird in my body. It's very frustrating.

Your GP has your back, right? Would it be worth getting an appt to talk about the fact that you're still experiencing chest pains, and got kinda shafted by the hospital?

I'm with @Snowie - even little naps is better than nothing. I hope that you can get some decent sleepies tonight, you definitely deserve it!

It’s just so frustrating @Jynx like how many people do I need to tell before I am heard? Did they even read my gps letter when I went in? I drove myself to the hospital yesterday, but had to park a bit of a walk away cause I refuse to pay for parking when visiting the hospital. I’m glad that I was well enough to leg it back to my car this morning!

my gp called me this afternoon. She was a little confused too. But said unfortunately she can’t really tell them what to do. I guess I just have to be thankful that they waited for the proper blood results and didn’t just go off the initial blood gases.

my gp said I need to increase my fluids heaps, which is a battle. But gotta try. Was suppose to go down and get my meds I was discharged on, but I’m too tired so I’ll grab them tomorrow.

im still heaps tired. I just wanna sleep. But I gotta have dinner. Then watch some tv!
I see my psychologist again tomorrow, 2 weeks in a row. She wanted to squeeze me in again this week cause then she is on leave for 3 weeks. Then I have my journaling group.

Thanks @Snowie how are you doing? I was reading along on another thread… you sound a bit brighter?

I'm going ok thanks @Bow Better now than when I went into hospital. As much as I didn't want to go in, it certainly has helped. My thoughts and actions were really out of control and I wasn't safe. The decision to be admitted was really taken out of my hands. Got another 6 ECT sessions to do as an outpatient (did 11 as an inpatient) so the journey isn't over just yet.

I hope you are able to get some good sleep tonight hon.

Am around for awhile if you need some company.