My Mosaic

@Bow aye, you might be all too familiar, but I can't imagine that makes it suck much less ay. I really wish there were more bridges between the gaps in the medical health vs mental health sectors - our mind and body are inseparable, yet the systems of support are so divided! I know you have committments at home, but do you think that it would help to have some time in the MH ward too? Even if it's something to aim for once your mum gets back?

Yeah that’s very true @Jynx i wish there was more ED treatment options in the public system. It’s pretty much non existent, and considering it’s the deadliest of mental health conditions, that is really sad.

hmm… a mental health admission. It’s always an option. Just not sure what good would come of it at the moment. I’ve had a good rest here, allowed others to take care of me. I don’t know….

@Bow hoping you could get some tea down tonight.

Sending 💗

Yeah would be good if there was at the very least more awareness, ideally also some training and accurate info for non-mh drs hey @Bow. Perhaps even something you could work to advocate for once you're further along in your recovery 😊

Perhaps something to discuss with your CM? Like if going home right now feels really scary, even though you've had this time in hospital to be looked after when you need it, perhaps it isn't entirely sufficient, given that the focus has been entirely on your physical health.

Hey @Bow.. I’m sending you lots of hugs.

I hear that it’s hard and that you know you are not ready yet. You are amazing for advocating for your own needs. Only you know what you need.

It sounds like you will definitely be home by the time your mum leaves. I’m not sure if this is out of line. Please let me know if I’ve overstepped and I’ll delete it. The last time your mum went away and it was just you and your daughter you did really well. You seem to do better when your mum isn’t around. So you know what??? You got this!! I know you do

Well…. I’m home. Don’t think they could have got me out of there any quicker unfortunately.
Dietitian gave me the all clear, saying that I had eaten all my breakfast. Even though the different dietitian from yesterday said I needed to be 100% compliant with my meal plan which I was not able to do yesterday.
It was all very rushed. I just hope that I don’t crash now that I am home.

I am due to see my psychologist tomorrow which works out well. Good timing. And I’ve made an appointment with my dietitian for her first available appointment which isn’t until next Tuesday. And I’ve called my gp up and I’ll see her Friday.

I get to surprise my daughter this afternoon at school pick up!

and yes @Captain24 when I am fully responsible for my daughter I do tend to do a bit better cause I don’t have any fall back plan.

@Jynx my next call is to my CM to see when I might be able to get in to see her next.

I must say it is nice to have my face back… no tape and tube.

@Snowie 💕

Welcome home @Bow I hope everything goes ok for you in this transition,

I went out for breakfast and had the yummiest pancakes with berries for pancake 🥞 day.

Lots of love ❤️

@Bow aww yay for being able to surprise your D! I'm sure she'll be over the moon to get scooped into your arms 😊

Can totally understand you feeling uneasy, and rushed. It's good that you've got those appts coming up, supports in place.

Really interesting about how things shift for you when you're fying solo, without the backup. Just shows how much of an influence our environment tends to have on our mindset/mental state. I think we've totally spoken about this before too, how things could be different if you and D lived alone together. If it makes that much of an impact on your mental health, would it be a decent goal to strive towards, moving out? Could be worth a convo with your psych anyhow!

I'm guessing school pickup is soon, any plans for you and the little one this arvo? Many cuddles I imagine!

Thanks dear @Eve7 and yummy pancakes! I like pancakes smothered in Nutella and topped with berries!

thanks @Jynx yep we have spoken about d and I moving out before. And I’ve spoken about it with many of my supports too. They all say that it would be a good goal

for me to have, but as I tell everyone, I couldn’t do that to my mum…. And I actually couldn’t do it financially at the moment. Rent is crazy ridiculous around here. Even granny flats.
So I’ve really gotta work on myself…. Sort my own head out and stop relying on my mum as my backup. I think getting back into the work force would potentially be good for me too. But I don’t know.

this arvo…. I’ve gotta go down and pick up my meds. And pick up a Kmart click and collect. Hopefully my car with start! Will take d out for afternoon tea if she is up for it.

@Bow curious about what you mean by 'do that to mum' - you are worried about her being by herself? But yeah, financial barriers are very difficult to overcome, for sure. I think getting into some work would be a fantastic step though, for a whole multitude of reasons - having more income to play with, building a routine and having a commitment to help you find rhythm, plus opportunities for social connections as well. What kind of job could you picture yourself doing?

Oh ho ho! Anything good from Kmart? They really have cornered the market on cheap versions of cool stuff haha. Love me a late-night Kmart run - there's a 24 hour one nearby, it's kinda fun to go in at like 2am when it's super empty and just look at all the toys and cool little decorations and stuff.