@Bow ohhh no! Dang real estate agents are the worst ay. My place is a bit dilapidated too, but I kinda like it. I mean not if it collapses but I have a very overgrown garden, and the house is tilted so the doors don't always close properly. I like creepy crawlies though so that's probably why I don't mind!
Definitely grab a couple games and see if you enjoy the Switch! My sister got one for my nephew and she ended up playing on it heaps! Game she got caught up in is Legend of Zelda, Breath of the Wild - it's very highly regarded by a lot of people! Another one that's good (and I have seen people say is really good for mental health, cos it's so relaxing) is called Animal Crossing. Maybe you'll end up as a gamer in no time!
Relationship Anarchy (in my own way of defining it, there's other schools of thought) is the idea that relationships shouldn't have to follow some set structure; the only two people who get to decide what a relationship is are the people in it. It also tries to reduce or eliminate the idea that there's a hierarchy of relationships - e.g. that a romantic partner is more important that a friend, and that to be 'just friends' is somehow not as good as being in a romantic relationship. It also takes all the stupid 'rules' about relationships and chucks them out the window, e.g. that you should only spend a certain amount of time with people, or that you're supposed to move in with a partner after x amount of time, or that you can't talk to friends about certain things, or that emotional intimacy is only for romantic relationships. It also makes room for 'unconventional relationships' to have validity - e.g. romantic relationships that aren't sexual, emotionally intimate friendships, stuff like that.
For me it's also a bit of a protest against toxic monogamy culture:
I used to be so miserable because I thought I had to find 'the one', my 'true love', who could fulfill every need and desire I ever had, which is just completely unsustainable. It also meant I felt miserable about not having a romantic partner, despite having some incredible friendships; we're socialised to believe that having friends isn't enough.
I think a huge part of toxicity in relationships is based on the idea that love is limited. Like, 'If you cheat on me it means you're splitting the love you have for me between me and someone else' or 'you don't do this for me because you don't love me enough' etc etc. It's why I think withholding love is such a big feature in a lot of abusive relationships.
I'm also polyamorous - and so is my partner. It really makes a lot of sense to me, the idea that love is so immense, so infinite, that I choose to share my love with as many people as I can. The depth of love I have for my friends is as deep as the love I have for my partner. I only have one partner at the moment but I've had multiple in the past, and my partner has two other partners too. Jealousy isn't really much of an issue because I don't see it as this idea that everyone only has enough love for one other person in their lives. Instead I get a lot of compersion - which is the joy I feel at my partner's experience of joy in their other relationships.
Whew! Big word vomit lol.
I have... no idea if there's a button haha. But I doubt it. I was taught that 'the priority is always for a person to be treated in the community, not in hospital' so I would hope that it would be unlikely that they'd force you into hospital.
Do you want to be working on something? Survival is paramount, yes, but living in survival mode all the time is not good for us. But maybe your psych is trying to get you to a place of stability before doing deeper work. I hope that the appt surprises your anxiety and actually turns out to be really helpful 🤞
