My Mosaic

Tired of fighting @Jynx tired of feeling this way. I’m so exhausted. So depleted. My body is not in a good way and it feels horrible but I can’t do anything to change it. I got no fight left

@Bow Oh hun, I can only imagine just how deeply tired you are, right down to your bones. I wish you didn't have to be in this fight. I know you say you can't do anything to change it, but is there something you can focus on that you can control? Something to give you respite, to nourish yourself, or to bring some small joy? Have you been doing any painting since your phenomenal cards before xmas?

Desperate for my body to just stop @Jynx but I can’t even do that right. Have found myself thinking of other ways this afternoon.

I’ve not done much painting. More just been playing around with watercolours. Trying to learn how they work, different techniques.

@Bow things are really heavy for you right now, and it concerns me to hear that that is on your mind. Are you safe for now, or worried the thoughts might become stronger?

Oh dope! Watercolours are really cool, and always fun to experiment! Get a bit messy with it, maybe even a little silly, perhaps? Is your little one into painting with you? She got skill with a watery brush?

Rite now I am safe. but worried about later @Jynx

@Bow Glad you're safe for now, and I'll be around till 9pm to support you. Also, I'm glad that you're talking about it. For real, thank you for being so open, it isn't always easy to do so and this way, we can band around you to create a safety net to catch you. If you think it could be helpful, I can email you and we can work together on some safety planning for tonight. Up to you 😉

I don’t wanna be a hassle again @Jynx

Not a hassle at all @Bow for two main reasons:

1. It's literally my job

2. I always very happily prioritise my time towards supporting safety, and you are just as deserving of that time as everyone else

So feel free to flick an email through if you like, I'll keep an eye out.

@Bow

I'm sorry to hear how hard things have been lately. But I commend you for pushing through hon. Just shows how much strength and courage you have got.

We are here with you hon, through all of this. Keep reaching out 💕💕💕

Hi @Snowie thank you.

how are you?