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Hard to find help

MaggieSenior Contributor11 Aug 2016, 10:58 am AEST

Hard to find help

I have been trying to find help for a while now without success. I visited a psych a few weeks ago who told me to put my past behind me, find a purpose, be happy, read books and don't watch TV. I left feeling more alone than ever. I'm feeling like a hopeless case, too hard basket. I wrote this song a few years ago, and it's still true today. When I'm weak and lonely, will you stand with me. When confusion is the only thing I know. When my words just can't be spoken, and pain surrounds my day, will you stand with me will you stand. When my company is heavy and I've nothing left to give. When the pain I feel covers all I do. Will you stand and love my brokenness, the silly things I do. Will you stand with me, will you stand. Please just stand.

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Unknown userMember21 Apr 2017, 1:20 am AEST

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Hi @Maggie sorry to hear that you're feeling alone. Late at night it's always the worst time for me. I'm glad that you're here 🙂 if you want to talk more about what's been happening you can as well.
Hope you're ok,
Lj

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Unknown userMember21 Apr 2017, 1:24 am AEST

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It's awful feeling like that. I have a lot going on at the moment and can strongly re late but the consequences of it are so great for those left around us we have to try and hold on... Even though yoI feel like using the crisis lines it might still be worth a try. Hugs

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Unknown userMember21 Apr 2017, 1:31 am AEST

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Hi @Maggie

I'm really sorry to hear how stuck you're feeling tonight. It can be so hard to reach out.. Like @Former-Member, I'm really glad you're able to be on the Forums at least.

What has worked for you in the past when you are feeling this low?

Keep in mind that some of the crisis helplines also have online chat options as well for support 🙂

Lifeline: 13 11 14 or Crisis Chat

Suicide call back service: 1300 659 467 or online counselling

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utopiaSenior Contributor21 Apr 2017, 2:43 am AEST

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@Maggie I wonder if something in particular has you feeling like this tonight?
Some days can be harder than others. That's where it can be helpful to talk here, if you don't feel able to call a help line just now.
Am here if you would like to talk.

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MaggieSenior Contributor21 Apr 2017, 7:56 am AEST

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Thanks for replying. It's the story of my life. Toxic relationships. I just pulled away in order to protect myself. Now a barrage of backlash. Lies, deceit cruel behaviour, making me out to be nonhuman. I only tried to help, that was all. No strings attached just one human helping another through the struggles of life. I get caught like this time after time, even though I'm a very quite living person. I don't go out looking for these people, they find me. My background is abuse, so learning the skill of life have come with a huge price tag, they still are. I just have no reason to go on living. And personally feel the world would be better off without me in it. I know the normal cleches they don't apply to me. I can only presume I am badness personified.

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NikNikSenior Contributor21 Apr 2017, 9:25 am AEST

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Hi @Maggie

I've dropped you another email.

I hope you have some supports that you can reach out to today.

You're welcome to keep reaching out there too.

If things esclate though, please be sure to reach out to one of the crisis services or local hospital / CATT team.

Take care,

Nik

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utopiaSenior Contributor21 Apr 2017, 10:04 am AEST

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@Maggie from what I've read - you sound like a lot of members here - an empath.
Empaths are people who see someone struggling and try to help that person, anyway they can. They are often giving, giving, giving. Of their time, their energy and their love. Often at the detriment to their own health. And some people like ti take advantage of their caring nature. Unfortunately there are people in this world who are takers & who are givers.
A struggle many here deal with is trying to find other givers to befriend and relate to.
It sounds like that's whats missing in your life at the moment. Friendship with other caring people.
Hopefully you will find joining in conversations on this forum helps build new friendships, while also building your self esteem back up.
I know you are struggling now, but it can get better.
If you find your thoughts of suicide become too intense, please ph Lifeline & talk with them.
And keep talking with us here.
You are not alone @Maggie

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TrueColoursContributor21 Apr 2017, 5:07 pm AEST

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Hi Maggie, what has happened to bring you down? Would you like to share? Im new on here but happy to listen.

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MaggieSenior Contributor21 Apr 2017, 5:41 pm AEST

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I've made it through the day this far. Why does life have to be so damn hard? How many times can you fall and drag yourself back up again, and what for....to fall again!!!! Anyway, I don't want to drag anyone else down. It's Friday, it's nearly over. I can hide in bed away from the world.

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TrueColoursContributor21 Apr 2017, 7:07 pm AEST

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Hi Maggie im glad you made it through today - sometimes that's a big accomplishment! I try my best to relax on a Friday, have a nice hot shower, get comfortable and watch some mindless TV. Now the weather is getting cooler sometimes I knit (not actually making anything, just knitting for the sake of it) it helps if I feel anxious, quite calming. If you can find some kind of distraction that works for you it might help you get through the night.

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