Need to vent

sure @Sam3

This year started like last year i guess @Sam3
I was doing my old job which was slowly making me go crazy - i was bored, undervalued and didn't get anything out of it. It was just a job "for experience"

I applied for a range of things and got some interviews but narrowly missed out on what would've been a good job for me to earn and save and move out. They said I did a really good job. But it didn't land me the role.

Eventually the winds changed one day and i received a call to work with a government organisation on a 5 month contract (i don't wanna say what organisation due to being anonymous). The first few weeks were quite good, but then covid lockdown 2.0 kicked in and ruined a lot of the work, the culture and the attitude of people. But I was happy to accept the role when it started - I needed to get out of that old job ASAP. Funnily enough, on the day I quit I got offered a role at one workplace (as I was on a rotating roster moving between different locations). It was a good day to quit. I took my last week off on paid leave lol.

Then I also started a uni course - cybersecurity. the first semester was great. Learned about coding. The next semester was a sham. It was clear the uni were after government subsidy. So many people were furious with the teaching quality and standards. So much of the material was copied from the internet. They didn't mark properly. I learned very little. BUT I did engage with it. That's probably the key take away from it all.

So here were are in October. My work contract expires at the end of the month and I have been putting in some applications. I had an interview last week for a job and I really didn't like their questions - far too broad and open ended. But the scenarios were good. I was happy with my answers. I mean they are made up scenarios, so it's more about "how you go about sovling this issue" vs "what do you do" because in the hypothetical situation its always weird. I asked for more info and then gave them the answer. I'm still remembering it and thinking if it was good enough....

my intern/analyst role is online and so I have been enjoying that. In many ways it was the only thing keeping me sane.

I guess it's appropriate that the seasons have changed now. We are in mid spring. The seasons in my life and experience have also changed. I have more experience. Engaged with an area I had not previously. I have also pushed myself in other ways regarding my skills.

Yeah - much busier lol

I think accepting illness is hard. No doubts about it. I sometimes feel guitly about it. I look at what I have and I don't feel things. But I think this can change usually depending on how hard I am on myself - I am harsh to myself and it needs to stop.

You reckon working in mental health had an affect on your own? Its burnout too hey? To succeed in today's world I am getting the impression we have to be abreast of everything (I'm 28)

I hope this peaceful setting outside atm eases your mind @BlueBay
Taking it easy here