Need to vent

Sorry you feel that way @BlueBay

It must be hard to know what to do.

You are certainly not helpless hon, am here with you sweetie 💗💗

Hi @cloudcore

Thought I'd reply on my post. The few friends I have are working and I wouldn't bother them with my crap.
I need to hang on until Thursday when I see my psych.
I feel I'm sinking even further down. Not looking for wirk is hard because I've been obsessive in looking every hour or half hour.
now I have nothing. I want to cry but tears are not there. Must be holding it in.
ive got headache and a backache.
feel there's no hope at the moment. 🥲🥲

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@BlueBay wrote:

Sorry @oceangirl I forgot to reply last night.
geez I've got no motivation. I'm dressed and currently washing the bed sheets. It's sunny here today. I should go for a walk but I just can't get out the door.
I have to go to the shops and get my mum a birthday present. My son works near my parents so he'll drop present off tomorrow morning.
I csnt be stuffed.
my new psych rang me last night to see how I was and coping. She also had to chsnge time for my appt Thursday. I've never had a psych ring me directly. It's always been the receptionists. She's so caring.
ok the washing machine is finished. I'll go and hang sheets outside. Thst may motivate me to go out for a walk and shops.
what are you doing today?

hi 👋 @Snowie @Anastasia @MDT @MDT @Shaz51 @Owlunar

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@BlueBay Glad you have such a caring and supportive psych. I didn't sleep too well last night because Milo was sick and I have to take him to the vet this afternoon. I am lacking motivation too. I need to change my sheets too. I have not done much today so far. I have just done washing and wiped out the microwave and made myself a healthy lunch. I am going to get organized for this afternoon and take a shower and freshen up before I have to go out. I have not had my hair done in a while so I will probably book an appointment to get my hair done. I will be back on later today probably before dinner and after and hopefully we can catch up then. Thinking of you my sister- keep your chin up. You're awesome and beautiful !!

Thank you for bringing me to this post @BlueBay,

I can see that you're a kind and compassionate friend that doesn't want to burden others, but just remember that you matter and your feelings deserve to be heard! I'm glad you were able to open up to us on the forums as a substitute.

It can be really hard to do important tasks, like looking for jobs, when you're overwhelmed and emotionally exhausted. Have you been able to get much rest lately?

from cloudcore

Hi @cloudcore I had to go to bed and sleep. My body is aching. Don't know why.
I quickly put a soup on and now hubby is home.
I feel horrible feel weak and not strong to do anything.

Hi @BlueBay

I agree with your psychologist that if you don't get around to doing things you enjoy then you will go down further - I am wondering if your break in hospital helped you at all or if you are suffering from a back-lash since you came home. It does sound like it.

We all have to deal with feeling crappy and unmotivated at times - I think it demands a habit and if our habit is giving into not being bothered or feeling unmotivated then that will take us down. If were are in the habit of getting on with things regardless then we do feel better.

I don't go to work and I live alone - sure I have support workers and they do a lot to keep me in touch with the community during this lock-down - 6 of them now - but yes - I do fill my time with things I enjoy - I read, use my computer to search for info and also do on-line shopping. I play the piano and watch movies. I walk when I can.

I have pain in my body but I find it essential to get up every day and move around and do exercises. Keeping fit is vital. I don't have any trouble motivating myself but I do understand that you do but this is a choice you make.

I think it's just easier for you to feel bad sometimes - I get it - there is no need for you to get upset and you don't have to feel so unhappy all the time - you live near the beach - I would love to live nearer so I could just walk there without catching a bus or getting a taxi - which I do sometimes - I just imagine walking a short distance and enjoying feeding the birds. I love staying at Lakes Entrances and walking along the Lake and enjoying the wild-life

It really does break my heart that you have so much sorrow - we all do actually - everyone I have ever spoken to had a shadow in their past - I guess we can choose how to accommodate that - you can do - I wonder if your therapists are helping you with that

Try and make tomorrow a better day by taking a walk to the beach first thing. I think we are in for an early spring - please make the most of where you live now

Dec

@BlueBay I hope your sleep this afthernoon helped. I went to the vet this afternoon, and Milo seems to be okay. Have you had a recent blood test- I have noticed when I have taken my vitamin D it has helped me (energy levels). I hope tomorrow is a better day for you.

Hi @Owlunar

im going crazy. My friend msg me this morning to go for a walk and coffee. I did go and it was ok. We sat at the beach. It was nice. Not as windy as now.
but now I'm back in bed. There's nothing to do. The wind is getting stronger and it's cold.
I tried colouring in before but got bored. All I seem to do is look on social media. Im going round and round in my mind.
lockdiwn extended another week.
Dinner is on - pork in slow cooker.

Watching a movie on tv in bed.

Hi @oceangirl @cloudcore @Snowie @Anastasia @Shaz51 @MDT @saltandpepper and ithers folkowing

Hi @BlueBay

Well done for getting out this morning. You should be really proud of yourself.

Lockdown is extended here another week too.

Well done also for having tea cooking already. I like using my slow cooker too. It makes making tea easier sometimes.

Hope you enjoy your movie.

Hey @BlueBay. I'm sorry for how you're feeling today. I can relate, I've been having some reactions to lockdown/Covid news myself.

I agree that getting out of bed and out of the house should be celebrated. Being able to get out into nature can have such a calming effect, especially to the beach. There's something about the waves crashing and feeling the vastness of nature that soothes me.

Watching a movie on a cold and windy day sounds like some good self-care.

Sending care 🌷