Raising Awareness of BPD - Flipping the Script

Hi @BPDSurvivor

I think for me, in my head, the word accept means it's ok about my brhsviour. But it's not.
see my rational mind says - I need to accept that I sm who I sm and I can't chsnge myself. I can't chsnge me but I can my behaviour.
then you get my negative side that thinks "accept" means i accept my behaviour, my childhood sexual abuse. Accept means it was ok for to be the way I sm.

see where my constant battle comes to play. I get so confused.

I need to find another word. Accept is too final. It's like if I say accept then I can't do anything wrong ever agsin.
is any of this making any sense?

Hi @BlueBay ,

I definitely understand what you mean. I don't think 'accept' means to grin and bear it. In no way should abuse be 'accepted' or made acceptable.

There is a difference between cognitively understanding what it is to accept something, and actually accepting something is.

Anyway, if it is becoming tangled in your mind, perhaps it's time to park it, and consider it later. I don't think it will do you any good to stew over something that is currently difficult to come to terms with. Have a go at finding some breathing space between what is going on in your mind and what you are physically doing. In that way, you won't be so caught up in the confusion.

Take care,

BPDSurvivor

Dear @BlueBay ,

This is for you.

There is a beautiful person inside you wanting to be loved.

BPDSurvivor

Aww Thsnks so much @BPDSurvivor

😢❤️

Dear @BlueBay ,

I want you to know BPD is not a life sentence. There is a beautiful YOU we need to help you surface. It is there. You don't need to strive to be someone different. Some people may not understand your emotional need, yet there are people who do. People who have been there. People who have cried the same tears as you. People to have felt the same pain as you. People who have been rejected and unloved. I am one of these people. I've been down that path. It was a battle. Recovery was a battle. I fought long and hard. I've come out victorious. You will too.

There is no victory without a battle. If you want to taste of victory, be prepared to battle,

The inner you is strong. The inner you is beautiful. The inner you wants to fight on.

SH behaviours are not a sign of failure. They are battle wounds. Suicidal ideation is not a crime - it is a diagnostic criteria of BPD.

I will fight this battle with you. When you feel weak, just hang in there, and I will hold you up. When you have strength, battle it out and don't give up.

Practise the STOP technique:

S = stop

T = take a breath - reconnect with your breath

O = observe - what are you feeling? Where are you feeling it? Where has your mind taken you? What is happening inside of you? What is happening around you?

P = proceed. Proceed mindfully. Either continue doing what you are doing or stop what you are doing if it is not helpful. Before anything, ask yourself "is it helpful or harmful?"

BPDSurvivor xoxoxoxo

Thank you @BPDSurvivor ❤️❤️

Hi @Nells ,

How is MissBPD travelling?

Hi @Et68 ,

Welcome here to our BPD thread!

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Hi everyone!

You can't stop the waves, but you can learn to surf.

Hi @Judi9877 ,

How are you going? I know you mentioned that things were a bit tough, so I thought I'd check-in.

I'm on school holidays at the moment so I'm a bit lost without the routine. I do have an online course I'd like to complete during my break but I think I'm procrastinating.

My interstate trip to Sydney has been cancelled due to covid which means I can't see family - again.

Other than that, I'm just waiting for the new year.

BPDSurvivor

Hi @BPDSurvivor . Thanks for checking in on me. It's much appreciated. How are you? I'll be honest and say that I've been a bit explosive over the last few days -?Christmas Day was the exception- and that my moods have been a bit towards the anger side. I'm less tolerant lately and my housemate and sister aren't making life easy. I've also had meds consistency issues with me forgetting to take them and so forth.
I just feel a bit lost without uni despite it starting in a few weeks and not really productive yet I know it will be stressful when it starts again. I'm planning on taking 2 units which is full time and I've also got to look for housing along with get my car fixed and pay for textbooks. Life just doesn't stop. It also adds to my pressure that my housemate has BPD but with her, everything is a drama that often results in her having a meltdown if things don't go her way. Yes, my life is full of stress but I survive on coffee and chocolate! I think I might access the library online and do some journal article reading on Resilience and other articles like indigenous people and mental health to entertain myself. What do you think?

How did Christmas go for you? Did you do any shopping at the sales or is that not for you? I see your Sydney holiday was cancelled. I hope you can go away when the situation up there settles down. Personally, I'd love to head down to Cradle Mountain in Tassie and hibernate in a cabin for 2 weeks with all the supplies I need alone and away from my current situation. If it is snowing, even better! Tassie is like my 2nd home and a place that I love despite all my bad MH episodes happening down there when I was at uni in the mid 2000's. I sort of feel that it is my spiritual home even though I got diagnosed with BPD in 2008 here on a trip back to Melbourne for the summer holidays. Weird huh?

Talk later.

Judi9877☺️💐