Just got out the hospital again

I just got out of the hospital again after a 2 week stay, this time was because I ended up having a manic episode which I am not sure is completely resolved but i think I am strating to feel the drop into depression again so that will be fun once that hits. I am on new meds which i dont know why but i dont want to take them i mean i guess i will take them but i still hate doing it. I am still not sleeping and kind of just ended up telling the doctors what they wanted to hear to get out because i couldnt stand another minute in that hospital. anyway i am back home now feeling weird to be free to do what i want but glad to be in my own space. now i have to start sorting out all the stuff i missed with uni which is going to be difficult. why does everything always have to be so difficult, why do i always have to do everything the hard way why is it so difficult to just be a semi functional human being?