Hey @IsAnybodyThere 😊
What you have said is perfectly ok, and I also don't think it's a difficult concept for me to understand- what you have described sounds very similar to experiences of people I know who have come to understand that they are trans lesbians.
I don't know if you've thought about labels and identities like that (and I certainly don't mean to put any on you- that's something for you to decide for yourself)- but I do want to express that you're not alone in these kinds of feelings, and that there can be positive ways forward.
In thinking about these things (I do identify as trans), I've found that time and space, trusted/safe people or services, community and learning from others' experiences (often online) has been helpful for me in understanding who I really am.
I'll tag some other members who've been involved in this thread so they can see your post above, if anyone would have any other perspectives to share 💗
@outlander @eth @BlueTrane @CFH @petrichor @Adge @NatureLover @Jynx @Fluttershy1 @Shaz51 @TheVorticon @The-red-centaur @Eden1919 @Schitzo