Hi everyone, I'm knew here and was invited to this space by the lovely @Former-Member xx
So a little about me. For the past month I have been questioning my gender. I am AFAB hetero but have always had a strong masculine side and though I have never felt womanly I have never entirely felt male either and there have been times I guess I have felt neither. I've also had issues with my sexuality in that I've never felt attraction to anyone unless I there was an intellectual or emotional connection with them first.
So I have been doing a lot of research into gender fluidity, non-binary & the asexuality spectrum. I guess for now I've come to the realisation that I am more than likely non-binary, genderfluid and demisexual.
I am 52 and I feel like years and years of confusion and feeling uncomfortable in my own skin are finally starting to shift. I came out to my therapist in session on Wednesday and he was amazing. I also rang QLife on Thursday and had a wonderful discussion. I finally after all this time feel like I am finding my authentic self. I have an extremely toxic homophobic family so my therapist & I agreed saying anything to them would just set me up for more abuse & bullying and due to the childhood trauma and subsequent c-ptsd & bipolar I have more than enough triggers to deal with when it comes to family. I honestly also feel like they aren't worthy of knowing. This is my journey and they haven't earned the privilege of being part of it.
So I'm coming out officially here as an AFAB non-binary, genderfluid, demisexual freaking rockstar! I have so much still to learn about the community and what it all means for me, but I'm also just feeling so empowered and so authentic in my sense of self.
Big hugs to everyone reading, I look forward to getting to know you all better. xx
BB 🐰💙