In too deep

I am trying to be kind to myself, to take it easy. It's a real challenge.

I am working- from home and on site a few days a week. It's good work but really is causing a lot of stress, that I'm trying to get help with this week.

im trying to get out and walk every day, wat well...this level 4 Melbourne lockdown is a challenge tho. Everything just feels really. If at the moment...I'm trying to tackle it and take it easy on myself too but it feels like a lot, so big and scary....I'll get there thanks @bleepbloophello for your support

hi there @LRA

I am the moderator at the moment and I am noticing how much you are struggling this evening. It is great that you are getting support here on the forums from members but the forums are not a place where you can get help if you are in a crisis. If you need help with keeping yourself safe and free of harm please reach out to the 24 hour help lines that are operating tonight.

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And please call 000 if you need urgent help,

take good care

Whitehawk

Hi @Former-Member @thank you for checking in. I'm finding my way about on the forums and I can assure you I am safe from harm. I have someone with me too, they know how I'm feeling.
I know there is support there if I need it.

Currently living in Melbourne is hard. I have major anxiety problems so when I put my mask on I can't breath.

is there anyway you can tell your wife how you're feeling?

I'm sorry to hear your struggle @Tay i know the restrictions are a challenge.
I am going to talk with my wife, she knows I'm not doing well and is being supportive. To express how I'm feeling to the true depth, I'm a bit scared and overwhelmed at the idea of it. I'm worried about how she will react and how I might feel too...how big it all might feel

Easier said than done - I know all the self care that I should do, I know I should keep in touch with friends - ring my family.

however, I don't have friends, I can ring my family - I do - but there's not much to talk about. I have hobbies - but I'm finding it hard to motivate myself.

I see a psychiatrist and an amazing psychologist - and I know what I should do but when you don't have friends to encourage you - family I'm supporting them - finding a reason to get out of bed in the morning is hard. I shower once a week because I don't care - why should I .

but someone loves me - my children, I stay strong for them.

please appreciate everyone in your life.

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@bleepbloophello wrote:

@LRA you know best about who would be a good support for this kind of thing, I hope there's someone who you think would be good to talk to about it. It's good you have a therapist, though I get that it's helpful to have someone outside of that (and who you don't have to pay!) for support. Also it sounds a bit trite but have you tried journaling? I've found it a great outlet and way to sort through what's going on. Anyhow, in terms of dissociating, I used to stress about it so much (not sure if you're the same) but it wasn't until I stopped myself from seeing it as a problem that it started to go away. I kind of see it as one of those finger traps - if you struggle against it you'll stay stuck. So for me, even when I felt like I was super dissociated I would pretend things were normal (not feeding it attention) and over time it becamse much less intense. Dissociation is a symptom not a problem in itself, so I think it's important to treat what might be causing it rather than getting caught up in the symptom. Don't know if that's in any way helpful but there you go.

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@LRA

Hello,

welcome to the forum and glad you've been able to reach out for support and connection. I'm new here too and the people have been very welcoming.
I hope you are okay and take care.

Just keep it simple - tell her you're not ok and want a hug

Thanks @Caringsoul73 people here have been great. Please get in touch or chat if you need, nice to meet people here

Oh @Tay @you're right......thanks for the keep it simple reminder