JzkmSenior Contributor
I feel like i’ve lost my partner to 1st episode psychosis. Will he ever be the same again?
Hi guys.
I’m new here and i’m sorry this is a very long post, read on if bored.
my partner of 3 years has just had his first ep psychosis 3 months ago. I noticed it build up for a month, the paranoia of me doing him wrong & weirdness. After the 3rd blow up, he landed in hospital as a voluntary patient. He went in sane (well, I thought he was) but the environment prolly triggered him, so he went into full blown psychosis for 4-5 days. He stayed there for 2 weeks,leaving me alone with our 8 mo old baby, w/o any family in this country. Child protection got involved as well. No communication from his doctors because he removed me as his next of kin, due to paranoia that i put him there,even though he called the mental health triage team himself and got assessed.
So he was discharged without a diagnosis (or so he says), Takes meds daily +temper out of control (he used to be the patient one) + memory has become worse, it was never the best, but he’s dangerously forgetful now.
Do antipsychotics cause irritability? I am happy but at the same time i fear that he's working again,crazy shifts, which is what brought this all on in the first place.
I want to ask how to talk to your loved one about their mental health and your concerns without them feeling like youre looking down on them?
He gets very defensive because he has this stigma about it and would pass it off as he was just “acting irrationally”.
I feel that if he accepts this new truth, both of us can deal with it better. He is downplaying it, & i feel more alone than ever. I would like for us both to get to know this illness better together but I dont want to push it as well, i cant find the right words.
Also, what are my rights as his carer?
Is there any legal form he can perhaps fill out when he is well, that will say i am his next of kin and will be informed about his treatment?
The hospital spat out a man i dont recognize.
Will he ever be the same again? Will he be able to look after us like before or will the roles be reversed from here on out?
I havent been able to work for 2 months now. Also had a termination (i know
not my year) after his discharge; which i feel like i cant even confide in him anymore because of his constant blunt affect a
& my fear of stressing him out with my feelings. I cant be walking on eggshells forever scared to wake a sleeping bear. I dont know how we will come back from this. Im mourning someone i love who is still alive.
Again, im so sorry for pouring this all out here.I dont know how long i can keep this up.I need some advice/experiences from people who have lived this everyday, not so much from psychologists. Thank you.
