I've had really bad day yesterday & today

Hi @Former-Member

I'm sorry to read that you're not travelling so well It's great that you can recognise the trigger and know what will be helpful for you to get through this. Hopefully that means you can jump on things quickly to get on top of things.

What would need to happen to get you to hospital? Is it a matter of presenting at emergency? Or do you need to go through your psychologist / treating team?

Please don't feel alone - the community is here 🙂

I feel very much the same as you right now @Former-Member. I'm sorry I don't have much to offer right now but I think it's a good idea if you need to go to hospital to go. I'm so sorry you are going through this right now. Thinking of you, sending hugs💜💐

Hi @Former-Member i'm sorry that you're not ok and have been triggered so badly.

I hope that it helps to be here with us, can you call anyone else as well so that you're not alone? or lifeline?

here with you,

lj

Hi @Former-Member

It astounds me that so many beautiful people like yourself are feeling so alone!! Loneliness is the pits - has health/family problems been preventing you from getting out and about and mixing? Are there any face to face support groups for depression where you live that you could try for ongoing help, support and face to face friendship? Am here if you want to talk my friend. Hang in there as the sun will shine for you again. Lots of love

Hi @utopia @Bridgetjones @Former-Member @Former-Member @NikNik

Thank you for your messages.

I'm feeling bad thats why I mentioned hospital but the thought of going in makes me feel bad too. I was meant to go into hospital almost two weeks but I cancelled my admission.

I worry that noone will understand or blame me for what as happen. Growing up and even now I have very little support and that really hurts me. I'm trying my best to desrcibe my family of origin which is diffcult. The problem is I have three oldr brothers and their was a hugh gap in age between me and them- 10,12 &14 years. My mum overdosed when I was 8,10 &12, she was put on life support and was very sick.

I'm not sure how to desrcibe the family dynamics but to say it was very diffcult for me growing up & now. My sister in law thinks very little of my parents and me. And that really hurts me.

I will try to explain some more later. What do you think I should do?

Oh @Former-Member i hope I haven't been triggering you 😔 I just want you to get better. Have you been in hospital before? If not it may well be worth trying. When I've been really bad even one or two nights helps me break the cycle a bit. You need to do what feels right for you though. 💜😊

@Former-Member You didn't triggr me at all. You have really helped me !!

Hi @Former-Member

Thank you for your mesage and its lovely to hear from you again.

I'm not sure how I feel but unspported mite to describe it best. Just have quite a difficult family. I have been getting out still from time to time.

I went down to see my brother yestaerday after my specialist appointment and my sisterin law is quite jealous of me and insecure. I can't dercibe how she makes me feel but I know she does not think much of me. After leaving there home about 8.30pm, and it is very dark up the driveaway and I can't see in front of myself and I was scared walking up the driveway and its quite a long driveway and my car is parked on the opposite side of the street. And noone offered to walk me to my car to make sure I got in my car okay. I then drove two hours and not a phone call to see if I arrived home okay or anything. So thats why I said I feel so alone and just feel like they don't care. Growing up me and my brother were close and this really hurts me.