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Lee71Senior Contributor
Don't know How to tag by tahts ok. Km so very tired, but still sleep avoids me. I never feel safe, not in my surrounding, paranoia how the list goes on . Only neescti this for tthe next few days.
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Lee71Senior Contributor
@Emelia8 @NatureLover
So you know today is what I would call a,bad day, real bad. I have tons,of anxiety, have had some of the med I'm allowed for it. My headspace is in the toilet. Only way to describe it.
And I have those impending tests this afternoon.
@NatureLover yea my my friend that leaf was odd, is why I stopped and photographed it.
Are you sure you're really ok today feeling maybe something is up?
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Emelia8Senior Contributor
Hi there @Lee71 ... good to see you. 🌺
But really sorry its such a bad day for you with your anxiety out of control right now. Severe anxiety is never good for our headspace is it? Ahhh .. .I was going to ask when your tests were to be done. This afternoon ... thats quick. Hope it all goes okay, and then you can get home and hopefully settle down and start to feel a little better. Are you a bit worried about what these tests may uncover perhaps? Such an odd leaf you photographed! Thanks for snapping it and sharing with us.
Yes @NatureLover ... sleep is always an issue for me. But lately its been very sporadic and interrupted. Not at all restful when in constant state of hypervigilance.
I did my weekly grocery shop this morning, all stocked up for another week. I do not like shopping at the best of times, but today was not easy. Feeling badly frazzled now. Will go and have a quick lie down I think and listen to one of my audio books.
Emelia 🌸
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Lee71Senior Contributor
@Emelia8 no I know what the scans are in relation too, it's to see if it's changed gotten bigger or changed and so on .
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Lee71Senior Contributor
@NatureLover my friend even with everything else im feeling, I can feel you're not ok
What can I do my friend ? Name it
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NatureLoverSenior Contributor
@Lee71 wrote:So you know today is what I would call a,bad day, real bad. I have tons,of anxiety, have had some of the med I'm allowed for it. My headspace is in the toilet. Only way to describe it.
Oh gosh, Lee...am concerned. 😮 And I hadn't realised those tests were this afternoon 😞 I know going out is filled with anxiety for you...am concerned about whether you feel up to it on top of your very bad anxiety today?
@Lee71 wrote:Are you sure you're really ok today feeling maybe something is up?
Your senses are amazing...yes, I still have a bit of depression, but as I wrote, I am a bit better then yesterday. I am sticking to writing on this thread though, today...the rest is too much for me. But it's not severe, so it's all OK.
However, I know if you write that it's a "real bad" day then it's extreme, even for you...can I ask what your heart rate is?
@Lee71
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NatureLoverSenior Contributor
@Emelia8 wrote:Yes @NatureLover ... sleep is always an issue for me. But lately its been very sporadic and interrupted. Not at all restful when in constant state of hypervigilance.
I knew sleep was an issue for you, but not that it was that bad. I'm really sorry to hear. 😞
I hope your lie down helps to unfrazzle you...
@Emelia8
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NatureLoverSenior Contributor
@Lee71 wrote:@NatureLover my friend even with everything else im feeling, I can feel you're not ok
What can I do my friend ? Name it
Honestly my friend, I promise you I'm OK. I'm taking care of myself, not putting pressure on myself to do anything.
But I am concerned about your heart rate...
@Lee71
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Lee71Senior Contributor
@NatureLover 127 .
So if we stay here....did you think of another song for another beach video?
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Lee71Senior Contributor
@NatureLover my heart rate is up I think because of anxiety and I'm a little shaky but I'm ok.
Its not up where the doctor doctor said to worry but if it gets worse or I get chest pains from it a again like last night I will go to the hospital , I promise. But I'm nowhere near that.
I'm actually on my way for the tests, I'm walking, slowly, it's not too far about 2klms.
I may be a bit early but I do not at all like being late.
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Lee71Senior Contributor
@NatureLover there are a lot of people around which I don't like cause its school pick up time, but I have my headphoneson so that helps. Im listening to this song right now
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