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Undiagnosed for 30 yrs?

ClarissaCasual Contributor04 Aug 2020, 7:16 am AEST

Undiagnosed for 30 yrs?

I came into a private clinic as a voluntary patient a week ago to manage what I thought was an isolated 'manic episode'... to be told within 2 days that I have probably had undiagnosed BPD for the last 30 yrs.

Struggling with lots of questions, confusion, thirst for knowledge and every question answered leads to seemingly a hundred more.

The more I read about BPD the more I realise 'its me', but the more it triggers past traumas, the more the manic me wants to 'party' with my brain.

But for today I'm still at the clinic, attending classes mostly filled with deppressive people, trying medications to prevent something I desperately dont know if I want to have.

So thats me... but my joy is my art, I love to draw and paint and I'm getting time to do it more than usual while I'm here.

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ClarissaCasual Contributor22 Aug 2020, 7:12 am AEST

Re: Undiagnosed for 30 yrs?

Each day is still a massive revelation, starting to realise I may have been undiagnosed for closer to 40 years than 30...

One day at a time still being gentle and kind

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MaggieSenior Contributor22 Aug 2020, 7:21 am AEST

Re: Undiagnosed for 30 yrs?

@Clarissa Yes, one day at a time.

Its good to hear you are being gentle and kind. Take care. ❤️❤️

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