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dont want to leave room

TABSenior Contributor26 July 2016, 2:35 pm AEST

dont want to leave room

Hi,

I recently moved to a country town for work. Probably wasnt up to working. quit after a week.

I dont have a base re accomadation. I prepaid 2 wks at a reduced rate in a motel.

Even tho they swapped rooms on me to a way worse one, I am thinking that they are going to try and charge me more for leaving early.

I left my tools at work. I cant bring myself to go there to pick them up

I need major dental work. I can afford it but again just cannot decide

I dont know why I didnt leave here a week ago.

I use alcohol. A lot. I have told myself I will stay here until sober for a few days

then make a semi sane decision about what to do and where to go.

I just feel bad about leaving the room, being in the room, seeing other people at the moment

yes I realise its in my head. Have a history of anxiety and depression

Its all getting circular

just wish I would stop bothering myself about it so much 🙂

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TABSenior Contributor27 July 2016, 12:28 am AEST

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..hey??.. Im pretty much an expert re 'Hands' .. just not always with everything or new things at expert professional level which I am at when in familiar territory. Also have uni degree, so it its just the way Im seeing the world at the moment maybe 🙂 am also 'old' so it not skills its me maybe well combination of trying new stuff in new work place plus issues think forgot that

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TABSenior Contributor27 July 2016, 12:33 am AEST

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Thanks again, shared accom does not work for me. not that I dont do it. father has his own 3 br house but yes re distance, hadnt thought of that. yes rehab coming to front of mind

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AppleblossomSenior Contributor27 July 2016, 12:38 am AEST

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Rehab works for some ...

good luck whatever you try.

my way ... was to dive straight into the guts of it and go to Kings Cross ... and make myself see sense .. and stop using ... it didnt fully pay off as I mucked about with it for another year .. but it was the start of the decision .. not to abuse substances ... they are all the same in my book.

At least you have put yourself out there on the forum, hope you continue to find it of value.

Apple

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TABSenior Contributor27 July 2016, 12:44 am AEST

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well did do 28 days 10 yrs ago now lol maybe time again or just stop swimming against tide just gets harder as gets older ..der lol

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AppleblossomSenior Contributor27 July 2016, 12:49 am AEST

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They say one way to get rid of bad habits is to crowd them out with good habits.

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TABSenior Contributor27 July 2016, 12:53 am AEST

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hmm. good point. just feeling bit too set upon to do anything atm. big box tick to self for retrieving tools but no sense of relief as have had in similar situations in the past.

Will be doing the Elvis thing soon lol

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utopiaSenior Contributor27 July 2016, 2:21 am AEST

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TABSenior Contributor27 July 2016, 5:03 pm AEST

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Hi. 😀 I left motel, put a block on my card re evil landlady. Well I don't owe anything and she had my details and may have had a different take on that. Am 2hrs down the road, making my way to somewhere lol. Got tax refund in bank. Dare I say it, I'm smiling 😀 Thanks for you guys support. I really had myself tied in a knot. Was not even close to a Happy Place

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utopiaSenior Contributor27 July 2016, 5:12 pm AEST

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Glad you have left that motel @TAB & that you are on your way 'someplace'. Do you have a plan on where you're going? Take care and all the best

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TABSenior Contributor27 July 2016, 5:35 pm AEST

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..a vague plan..I may turn it into a holiday lol. I am sort of on the way to Kalgoorlie, but thinking may cool heels in Esperance for a few days and try and be kind to myself before I face the world again.

then dentist, work etc, go and visit father for 92nd birthday

Im feeling way better since left that room .. re elvis and the building lol

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