Just diagnosed

I was diagnosed when I was 16. I'm now 24.

I haven't recovered from BPD, I will never recover. But I have it under control.
Honestly if I were to lose my partner of 4 years, I would be a mess. I'm still terrified of abandonment. I feel like I'm always obsessive of the person when I'm in a relationship. Terrified of being away from them for even one night. This is still an issue I have.

My medication fixed my insomnia, and because it knocks me out at night time I don't have constant nightmares throughout the night anymore.
I still have what I call my 'melt downs'. But instead of being a daily thing, this only happens once every couple of months or so. And I'm better equipt for them. I'm able to focus on deep breathing to try and soothe myself during a melt down. But need my partner to help get me through it still. I hope one day with more practice, I will be able

to do it on my own without that support.
You can't recover from BPD. It's a life long illness. But symptoms can be improved grately. At the moment I feel 'normal'. I'm not emotional, crying, wanting to self harm on a daily basis. I'm actually happy with my life. And I'm doing well with my life. Yes I still struggle with BPD, but it is 'more tolerable' now that I have learnt about what helps and work on this.

Oh and sorry about the years I mixed those up.

Ive been doing 'well' with my BPD since I was about 19/20. So that was 4/5 years ago not 8. 8 years ago is when I started my medication.

Hi @BPDSurvivor

Hey @BPDSurvivor

I know I have more insight into my thoughts and behaviour now thsn before.
I still catastrophise, struggle with black and white thinking abd a few other traits.
if I could come off my meds that would be good.
I think if I csn live and enjoy my life with less BPD behaviour and crisis melt downs then that would be good.
it's so hard though.

@Former-Member why can't I post in my "not feeling good"

im very depressed tonight

ir sucks

How did that just wirk when I csnt post it under my own post ???

it doesn't make sense

@Former-Member can you hrlp me

I'm crap and angry cause I can't post

Thanks for sharing @PlantLover .

@BlueBay , your very desire to function better is definitely possible. Targeted therapy is extremely useful. You get to learn so much more about people and yourself so that you can develop an understanding how to prevent/reduce 'melt-downs' and other unhelpful traits.

My MBT and ACT work made a huge difference.

Life (for anybody) will never be a bed of ease, let alone a borderline. But you can live a very fulfilling life if you get to know yourself and BPD a bit better.

Don't be too hard on yourself.

BPDSurvivor

Thank you @BPDSurvivor xx

Hi @BlueBay

I am sorry that you cannot post in the 'not feeling good' thread. Unfortunately I have no answer to that but I could ask the Community Managers to look into it in the morning. Other members appear to be posting as usual.

And I am very sorry that you are feeling very depressed tonight BlueBay. That must indeed suck! Please keep yourself safe and I hope you are able to get a little solace and rest.

take care

Whitehawk

Thsnks @Former-Member
I have nowhere to post now
I've trued about 3 times snd keep getting "unexpected error "

I don't get it.

im emotional

feel like a useless piece of crap

feel hopeless stupid snd not important enough for anyone including my own post.

I'm nothing