Stopping medication

@Smc - made me chuckle - thats you were "finishing breakfast" during a telehealth session? I'm dominantly auditory so don't mind phone help, but facial expressions do help. I need to interact face2face more.

Love the comic, veey apt🌺

Thanks Appleblossom, You seem to have a good grasp of my family dynamics. It's the lies and manipulation I'm tired of. And just my sister's dogged persistence in not acknowledging my message, for years... it hurts +++ (and she knows it would), So i'm not giving her opportunity to anymore. Give her what she wants from me - nothing. Took me a while to realise I was hurting myself to keep trying. The boys have always been aloof.

With dad's Estate being settled ATM there's just too much paranoia that its safer to lay low & go through the solicitor. God willing I'm praying we'll reconnect down the track when there's no agenda to be falsely read into. I Ididtalk with older SIL re bro-1 so sick, and rang him for his birthday last week, so I'm not altogether heartless. The others twist everything I say and do, so... what's the point! No love lost there. When i was praying it came to me "you'll know them by their fruit" ... "where's the love?"

Even my church going rich sister does not show love, not to me, the opposite actually (inc slander). Maybe I don't show love well either, I did withdraw into myself after the breakdown in my 20s then moved faraway, but I'm not vindictive, and keep trying. It's just a stupid intermeshed mess that just writing about stresses me.
Anyway, Appreciate that you know what it's like to be damaged, and from damaged... but ever hopeful in God for healing, somehow.
I hope you and your son are doing ok?

I betta go get something done here irl. Back later.
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Your def not heartless @Former-Member

@Appleblossom ,

The book looks soooo interesting!

Im really psych thrillers at the moment. Oh, and of course uni/study textbooks.

@Former-Member , main thing to realise....

You can't change the people around you, but you can change the people around you....

(no, it's not a typo. Read into it.)

Had to make a meme out of that one BPDSurvivor

@BPDSurvivor Each to their own re books, but my appetite has more often leaned away from fiction, than the average gal, must be Madame Bovary and Flaubert's fault.

@Former-Member Love it.