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Changing meds

Changing meds

Hi. I battled MDD & acute anxiety nearly all of my adult life. I've been on numerous different SSRIs, SRNIs, antipsychotics, tried rTMS & ECT. Am addicted to a benzo for my anxiety.

I am in the process of swapping out from a SRNI to a MAOI and the wash out period is hell. I really don't think I'm going to make it. This is the darkest place I have ever been.
I have no family support, honestly no friends, not able to work & are completely isolated.

i don't feel my medical team actually care much anymore, they are overwhelmed by new clients because of covid.

i hardly sleep, but the last thing in my mind before I do, is how much I want to die. It's the first thought of the day when I wake up.

what if this new medication doesn't work either??

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Still here. Sorry. I'm not keeping up.

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Good Morning @WIP hoping today has some hope for you.

💜🤗💜

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Thank you @Eve7

I'm waiting in the reception of my Osteopath, so I should feel better psychically after my appt.

Have the new psychologist this afternoon, 2nd appt with her. Not sure how I'll feel after that one. I'm anxious already in the lead up.

I hope you have some sparkle in your day. You're doing so well since being discharged from hospital. I'm so happy for you!

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Thanks @WIP @so far, so good 😊

I hope your appointments go well today.

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Hi @WIP

I hope your appointments went well xxx

Big hugs 🤗❣️💞🙏💐

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Hi @WIP missing you. Are you safe?

Leaving you a hug.

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Hi @Eve7

Thank you for your concern - I'm ok, just plodding along. Taking it day by day.

My mum is leaving Monday to visit my sister, nephew & niece interstate. I'm so happy she gets to see her grandkids, but quietly a little worried how I'll go incase I have a crisis - she's the only support I have irl. I might call on you guys if needed tho.

How are you going/feeling after your big decision appts with your pdoc? I'm sure all will be fine. You can handle anything thrown your way.

Hugs

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Hi lovely @Anastasia

Osteo appt went well, but needed a Chiro adjustment the following day, as the mid ribs and associated back area were al out of whack - very sore indeed. Still a bit sore. I describe it to people as 'white noise' - it's always there &'I just tolerate it until the pain gets unbearable (much time my Osteo & chiro's frustration).

How are you going my friend? You've been very quiet, so am assuming it's been a challenging week for you. I hope your man has come around and you are talking again, and also that your boy has settled a bit this week. I can't imagine how tough some days can be for you. I do know I admire you very much. Stay strong! Thinking of you.

L & Levi ❣️❤️❣️❤️❣️

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I hope the treatments continue to provide some comfort for you xxx

I'm ok. Had a night out with my bf last night. First time ever to a proper restaurant just the two of us! My boys have both headed to their fathers so we grabbed the opportunity. It was lovely.

My boy is not doing great but no need for hospital just an increase to the AP meds which is not great but not having to be admitted for as long as he has is a big win. He's very needy and taking most of my attention most of the time which is why I don't have much to give here. Surgery is in order for some shoulder tears he has due to fits so hoping we can get that done this side of Christmas so he can "get on with life" and recover.

Sending you love and light dear @WIP , Levi and

Tagging @Emelia8 to keep her in the loop too xxx💞❣️💞

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Stay strong lovely @Anastasia

So glad you enjoyed your dinner date with bf last night. Sounds romantic & well overdue. You're lucky to have him in your life - treasure that, as I'm sure you do.

very sorry to hear your boy isn't doing too well, but at least it's not a hospital admission, although a tweak in APs can bring its own set of challenges Unfortunatley. I do hope he gets the treatment/surgery for his shoulder this side of Christmas, it should bring some small relief for both of you.

Sorry, I don't mean to hassle you and don't expect a response each time I tap you a note. Just wanting to let you know you're always in my thoughts and I just wish the very best for you, your boy and your man. You deserve all

the happiness in the world my dear friend - you are so strong!!

I hope to be ok over the coming week, as Mum is going interstate to visit my sister & nephew/niece. I'll have no irl support, so a bit scared incase I have a crisis. But I know I've got you guys and the SANE helpline if I need

L and Levi xx ❣️❤️❣️❤️❣️❤️❣️

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