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Changing meds

WIPSenior Contributor15 July 2020, 11:14 am AEST

Changing meds

Hi. I battled MDD & acute anxiety nearly all of my adult life. I've been on numerous different SSRIs, SRNIs, antipsychotics, tried rTMS & ECT. Am addicted to a benzo for my anxiety.

I am in the process of swapping out from a SRNI to a MAOI and the wash out period is hell. I really don't think I'm going to make it. This is the darkest place I have ever been.
I have no family support, honestly no friends, not able to work & are completely isolated.

i don't feel my medical team actually care much anymore, they are overwhelmed by new clients because of covid.

i hardly sleep, but the last thing in my mind before I do, is how much I want to die. It's the first thought of the day when I wake up.

what if this new medication doesn't work either??

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Eve7Senior Contributor22 Nov 2020, 9:12 pm AEDT

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Just remember @WIP @Anastasia @Emelia8 that even though we often feel alone we’re in this journey together.

I’m about to walk back from the beach with my family on this beautiful, starry night.

🌔🌚🌗🌛

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Emelia8Senior Contributor22 Nov 2020, 9:17 pm AEDT

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Thats very true @Eve7 ... thank you for reminding me of that. Its way too easy to forget sometimes.

Sounds like you've had a lovely evening at the beach @Eve7

😎🌟

Emelia 🌷

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WIPSenior Contributor22 Nov 2020, 9:20 pm AEDT

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Thank you for the reminder @Eve7

It feels reassuring having you beautiful ladies here with me @Emelia8 @Anastasia I feel less alone, even though physically I am alone nearly every day. I have care & company here.

Enjoy your walk home from the beach with your family. Sounds like you've had a delightful day together. Xx

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Emelia8Senior Contributor22 Nov 2020, 9:23 pm AEDT

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@WIP 😄🌺🌟💝

Emelia 🌷

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Eve7Senior Contributor22 Nov 2020, 10:02 pm AEDT

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We went down and they all played beach cricket 🏏 haha I was the umpire...again but no one really listens to the rules!!

when the sun went down they just sat around and talked, then had to carry the little ones home as they’d fallen asleep.

I’ll be left with sweeping the sand out tomorrow.

@WIP @Emelia8 @Former-Member

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Unknown userMember22 Nov 2020, 10:04 pm AEDT

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Sounds like a good day @Eve7

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Eve7Senior Contributor22 Nov 2020, 10:09 pm AEDT

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I’m exhausted @Former-Member

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Unknown userMember22 Nov 2020, 10:12 pm AEDT

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I bet you are @Eve7 sleep well

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Eve7Senior Contributor22 Nov 2020, 10:15 pm AEDT

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Thank you @Former-Member

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AnastasiaSenior Contributor22 Nov 2020, 10:33 pm AEDT

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Beach cricket sounds lovely @Eve7

I agree having you all to talk to, sit with and call family makes the world of difference. Pinch myself that I got lucky to walk this crazy life with you all @Eve7 @WIP @Emelia8 @Former-Member @Zoe7

((((( Group hug )))))

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