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Changing meds

WIPSenior Contributor15 July 2020, 11:14 am AEST

Changing meds

Hi. I battled MDD & acute anxiety nearly all of my adult life. I've been on numerous different SSRIs, SRNIs, antipsychotics, tried rTMS & ECT. Am addicted to a benzo for my anxiety.

I am in the process of swapping out from a SRNI to a MAOI and the wash out period is hell. I really don't think I'm going to make it. This is the darkest place I have ever been.
I have no family support, honestly no friends, not able to work & are completely isolated.

i don't feel my medical team actually care much anymore, they are overwhelmed by new clients because of covid.

i hardly sleep, but the last thing in my mind before I do, is how much I want to die. It's the first thought of the day when I wake up.

what if this new medication doesn't work either??

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Eve7Senior Contributor14 Nov 2020, 6:57 pm AEDT

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Out on Monday @WIP if pdoc is happy.

Still here with you 😋💙😋

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AnastasiaSenior Contributor15 Nov 2020, 11:56 am AEDT

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Oh @WIP

I am so sorry I wasn't here for you!!!!

I'm so glad you are surrounded by love in here. I'm sorry you've had a couple of excruciatingly difficult days. I am sending you an abundance of strength love and hugs in the hope that it helps a little. Please look after YOU. I have to head away for the day but please know I have you close to my heart. Stay safe beautiful, you are so loved xxx

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AnastasiaSenior Contributor16 Nov 2020, 1:01 pm AEDT

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@WIP @Emelia8 @Eve7

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AnastasiaSenior Contributor17 Nov 2020, 7:29 am AEDT

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Sending you love dear L.

Have you in my heart and thoughts always @WIP and Levi ❣️🐕

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WIPSenior Contributor17 Nov 2020, 10:00 am AEDT

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Thank you gorgeous @Anastasia

Plodded along y'day - had rotten sleep last night - still tossing and turning at 3.30am - so frustrating.
Levi even slept in a bit this morning, cause I kept waking him up last night.

I hope today will be a bit better for me. I'm not going to put too high a expectations on myself tho.

Think of you too - hope things r ok in your world atm.

🤗🧡

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AnastasiaSenior Contributor17 Nov 2020, 7:11 pm AEDT

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I hope today was a little brighter beautiful girl ❤️

@WIP

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WIPSenior Contributor17 Nov 2020, 7:35 pm AEDT

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Hi lovely lady @Anastasia

Today was a bit better thank you. I'm exhausted though, as I only got 3 hours sleep last night. My body is aching, but my mind is wired - if that makes sense. I just hope I can sleep well tonight.

I hope you had a good day! 💕

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AnastasiaSenior Contributor17 Nov 2020, 8:42 pm AEDT