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Changing meds

Changing meds

Hi. I battled MDD & acute anxiety nearly all of my adult life. I've been on numerous different SSRIs, SRNIs, antipsychotics, tried rTMS & ECT. Am addicted to a benzo for my anxiety.

I am in the process of swapping out from a SRNI to a MAOI and the wash out period is hell. I really don't think I'm going to make it. This is the darkest place I have ever been.
I have no family support, honestly no friends, not able to work & are completely isolated.

i don't feel my medical team actually care much anymore, they are overwhelmed by new clients because of covid.

i hardly sleep, but the last thing in my mind before I do, is how much I want to die. It's the first thought of the day when I wake up.

what if this new medication doesn't work either??

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Thank you @WIP for your update. It all sounds positive and a step in the right direction. Thinking of you sweetheart 💕🌻

@NatureLover 👋💚🌄

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Hi @WIP and @Anastasia

@WIP I wasn't online yesterday, but am keen to hear how it went with Centrelink?

Also when your TMS treatment will start?

Thinking of you @WIP and hoping things are looking up, even just a little bit.

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@WIP 💕

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Good morning @WIP

I hope the TMS has started and is going well for you.

Sending lots of love.

💖💙💖

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You're in my thoughts @WIP 🎁🙏🌹

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Hugs @WIP . Thinking of you!

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Hoping you're ok @WIP, you are always in my thoughts ❤️

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Hello lovely @NatureLover @Anastasia @Eve7 @Eve7 Hope you're all travelling along ok - I think of my sane forum friends often.

I'm travelling along alright. Had some challenges during the week as I made a formal request to see a female psychiatrist (a particular one who has a terrific reputation) as the man I see atm has been very dismissive, rude, roadblocking and unhelpful (I could keep going, but will stop there) & causing me great distress. So the wheels are in motion there.

Also, I decided against TMS for now & are changing AD (back to one the I was on for years and helped). An option the augment it with another medication is there also, if thing don't improve in a couple of months. So I've started tapering then current one & will start the new one in a week 🤞

I can always come back in for a go at TMS down the track - so there's options.

I'll be keeping up with regular psychologist sessions & are on the wait list for the intensive 6 month DBT course, or do another day program as an outpatient, maybe ACT focussed.

I'm attending the group sessions here pretty much every day & soaking up as much therapy as I can, even though they can be triggering.

Im a bit flat & anxious today, starting to feel a bit of cabin fever & I miss Levi & Mum.


@NatureLover I'm happy to report I'm back on Centrelink payments!! That was an ordeal in itself, but won't bore you with the drama. But my medical exemption is valid for the next 90 days, then I go through it all again. Hopefully if this female pdoc takes me on, she can help me with a DSP application. My current pdoc is useless with admin & the reason I was cut off in the first place.

Love to you all & I really appreciate your messages. 💙🌻

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Hi @WIP

It’s lovely to hear from you with such positive news.

Well done for being assertive enough to request a female pdoc. I really hope this happens soon for you.

Also, good on you for making your own choice with treatment options. I really hope the change in meds has a positive outcome for you.

I’ve slept most of the day with some help from prn and soon I’ll take my night meds and go back to sleep.

Sorry you’re missing Levi and your mum so much but hopefully you’ll soon be in better health and able to return home.

Lots of love

💜💛🤗💛💜

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Hi @WIP love your input , love reading your messages Thankyou so much from your Clawde just following along 👍

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