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Changing meds

WIPSenior Contributor15 July 2020, 11:14 am AEST

Changing meds

Hi. I battled MDD & acute anxiety nearly all of my adult life. I've been on numerous different SSRIs, SRNIs, antipsychotics, tried rTMS & ECT. Am addicted to a benzo for my anxiety.

I am in the process of swapping out from a SRNI to a MAOI and the wash out period is hell. I really don't think I'm going to make it. This is the darkest place I have ever been.
I have no family support, honestly no friends, not able to work & are completely isolated.

i don't feel my medical team actually care much anymore, they are overwhelmed by new clients because of covid.

i hardly sleep, but the last thing in my mind before I do, is how much I want to die. It's the first thought of the day when I wake up.

what if this new medication doesn't work either??

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JynxModerator05 Aug 2021, 8:39 pm AEST

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Hiya @WIP just wanted to pop in and offer some support. And also my condolences at having to deal with Centrelink! I don't know if that process is ever easy.

I can hear you're really feeling the exhaustion of having to hold on. I am sending some feelings of hope and warmth your way. Maybe they will hit you when you're not expecting it, and it will make you feel a little lighter.

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Shaz51Senior Contributor05 Aug 2021, 8:42 pm AEST

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hugs @WIP , sitting with you xx

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AnastasiaSenior Contributor05 Aug 2021, 8:46 pm AEST

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Oh @WIP I am sorry to hear that.

I am happy you have a lovely Nurse there. You deserve that. I'm sending you an abundance of love and hope. Hope for a better day tomorrow sweetheart ❤️

Hope that you sleep well tonight to with a nice warm room 🙏💕

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Eve7Senior Contributor05 Aug 2021, 8:49 pm AEST

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I am so sorry @WIP I hope you sleep well tonight.

Lots of love

💚💛💚

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NatureLoverSenior Contributor06 Aug 2021, 6:39 am AEST

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Oh @WIP , I really feel for you and am just so sorry 😞

I'm upset and worried for you about Centrelink cutting you off and not accepting your medical certificate. Especially at this time when even living seems overwhelming for you 😞

I'm glad the social worker will help you to deal with Centrelink today. I'm wondering if you can maybe apply for the Disability Pension and /or NDIS?

And are you renting or maybe have a mortgage?

You've mentioned quite a few times before about suggesting going back on the SSRI you were on years ago that helped at the time. It seems to me to be a good idea, but of course I'm not a doctor. I am also really sorry that the pdioc there doesn't seem to be understanding or helpful 😞

I'm sending lots of wishes out for you, for hope, understanding, the right meds, strength, warmth, support, finances and help dealing with Centrelink.

You do have friends and relationships here online with us, @WIP ... 💙

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NatureLoverSenior Contributor08 Aug 2021, 10:01 am AEST

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@WIP thinking of you there in hospital and hoping things aren't too hopeless 💙

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Eve7Senior Contributor08 Aug 2021, 12:02 pm AEST

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Loving you today my precious friend @WIP

I hope today is a bit better for you 💖💙💖

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AnastasiaSenior Contributor08 Aug 2021, 12:24 pm AEST

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@WIP 💖

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WIPSenior Contributor08 Aug 2021, 8:14 pm AEST

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Hi ladies @NatureLover @Eve7 @Anastasia

Today has dragged on so much. It's always very quiet with only one morning group being offered.

I've started to settle in a bit, and have been talking to a group of other ladies here at meal times in the dining room.

I've been a bit calmer today, but still quite anxious and teary. I can't speak highly enough of the nurses support, care and advice.

Not looking forward to seeing my pdoc 2mrw on one hand, but on the other hand I am. Hopefully, he'll let me know my treatment plan, which I think will be an intensive course of TMS treatment.
So, I'll be here longer than initially planned, but with lockdown, it doesn't really matter. However, there's no leave or visitors. So I'm missing Levi and Mum & prob won't see them for another 4 weeks.

Hoping you've all had a good weekend and are travelling along ok.

Hugs 🤗💙

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AnastasiaSenior Contributor08 Aug 2021, 11:46 pm AEST

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Hello and thank you for your update @WIP

I'm glad to hear you feel calmer today, that is good news. I'm sorry you may not be able to have your Mum visit. The big picture has you catching up with quality time after. Sending you love, hope and squishy hugs L. Love you lots 🤗🤗💛💛💚💚🤗🤗💛💛

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