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Changing meds

Changing meds

Hi. I battled MDD & acute anxiety nearly all of my adult life. I've been on numerous different SSRIs, SRNIs, antipsychotics, tried rTMS & ECT. Am addicted to a benzo for my anxiety.

I am in the process of swapping out from a SRNI to a MAOI and the wash out period is hell. I really don't think I'm going to make it. This is the darkest place I have ever been.
I have no family support, honestly no friends, not able to work & are completely isolated.

i don't feel my medical team actually care much anymore, they are overwhelmed by new clients because of covid.

i hardly sleep, but the last thing in my mind before I do, is how much I want to die. It's the first thought of the day when I wake up.

what if this new medication doesn't work either??

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I have always been a fighter @Anastasia , but I'm truely running very low on fight and have for awhile now. I don't know if it's the new AD I'm on. The quick reduction of anti anxiety meds - or the most likely explaination - I'm treatment resistant and will have this illness for as long as im alive 😭😭

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I have no doubt it's the change in meds. Seen it first hand here @WIP

Hopefully this time will be the game changer for you 🙏🤗🎁✔️❤️

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Thanks for the update and keeping in touch @WIP . I acknowledge it is so very difficult at this point in time. We are here for you. We are holding you.

BPDSurvivor

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@WIP wrote:

My depression is at a dangerous level & anxiety at an all time high. I cry all day and strongly believe my mental health won't improve enough, so I can function and have a worthwhile life.


@WIP I'm just so very sorry that you're treatment resistant. 💔 😭


@WIP wrote:

When I return home I'll still be on my own with no support.


Would it be possible for you to have support workers? Maybe 2 or 3, that could come and visit most days of the week?

Am holding on to hope that you'll make it to Wednesday and that this hospital admission will be different and better.

Sending lots of 💙 and hugs, dear @WIP .

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Hi @WIP , I just want to check in with you this morning...concerned for you. I know you must feel you're living a nightmare 😞

Just one more day till you can go into hospital. Am holding onto hope for you.

Sending much 💙 and care...

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Sending you an abundance of love @WIP 🌹💞🐾🐕💞

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@NatureLover wrote:

I know you must feel you're living a nightmare 😞


Yep, that's exactly how I feel @NatureLover Life hasn't been pleasant at all for such a long time, and recently it's been unbearable.

I've just finished packing for tomorrow and found myself getting very anxious and sad. I'm not looking forward to this admission at all 🥲

Thanks very much for your care and concern. It's heart warming to know someone is thinking of me. Same goes for you @Anastasia

Sending hugs 💖

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Not a day that you aren't in my thoughts sweet L. I'm backing you all the way. It's understandable you're anxious hun. Holding hope with you and your hand.

You've got this @WIP 🙏💕🌻☀️☕✔️🌷🌹

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Thanks for checking in, @WIP ...I am just so sorry that things are unbearable. 😥

Will you be allowed to use your phone in hospital? I hope the hospital admission works out better than you're expecting...

Will be thinking of you and sending good wishes @WIP 💙 Wishing you some hope right now, as well as strength and what you need to cope.

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Sending lots of love to you @WIP and really hoping this admission is the beginning of your new life...just one little step forward at a time.

💙💙🤗🤗💙💙

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