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Changing meds

Changing meds

Hi. I battled MDD & acute anxiety nearly all of my adult life. I've been on numerous different SSRIs, SRNIs, antipsychotics, tried rTMS & ECT. Am addicted to a benzo for my anxiety.

I am in the process of swapping out from a SRNI to a MAOI and the wash out period is hell. I really don't think I'm going to make it. This is the darkest place I have ever been.
I have no family support, honestly no friends, not able to work & are completely isolated.

i don't feel my medical team actually care much anymore, they are overwhelmed by new clients because of covid.

i hardly sleep, but the last thing in my mind before I do, is how much I want to die. It's the first thought of the day when I wake up.

what if this new medication doesn't work either??

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Hi @eth thank you for taking the time to respond to @Bunniekins 's tag and my queries around NDIS. Since my post, I've done a bit of research, but also had a meeting with a 'peer worker' from WellWays.org - on the surface, they seem to be a bit similar, however WellWays is limited to just 6 months (catching up each fortnight). Luckily this NFP org isn't costing me anything, just like NDIS.

I like how you made the comment around developing boundaries around the r'ship, in comparison to true friendships. I don't have any friends at all, so I'll need to be very mindful of not getting too attached to my peer worker (even though she seems awesome based on our first meeting y'day).

I still think it would be in my best interests to pursue the NDIS path, as I'll need ongoing support. As you mentioned, you're in your 4th year with them. Has it been with the same person over this time?
I'll be sure to tag you if I have further questions.

Thanks so much @eth I hope all is going well with you.

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I’ve had a lot to do with NDIS @WIP but as it’s been in a professional way and not personally I really can’t say anything.

However, it will be great if you find out as much as you can then go in well prepared to ask for all that you need. It’s not just having support workers but allied health, devices etc.

💜🧡💜

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hey @WIP no I had a few different people over the first 18 months or so as I was with a couple of large organisations whose staff would change periodically and I had to accept the hours they allocated to me. Then I discovered an online platform called Hireup through which I can choose my own support worker that suits me and also get them to do times that suit me. There are other similar platforms like Mabel that work in a similar way. So now one of my people has been with me 2 1/2 years and I had another who was with me for nearly 2 years but had to stop as she became unwell. I recently went through the process of finding another new one to replace her and am now going really well with the new person I chose. It also means I can choose only female workers, more mature people with education as well as work and life experience. That's what I look for.

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Have you got birthday plans this weekend @WIP ?

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Morning @Anastasia

No, just brunch with Mum. I get very down each year around my birthday. This year is no different.

Will you need visiting your boy?

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Enjoy lunch beautiful, perhaps this year will be different? @WIP

Not this weekend as I am away with a girlfriend.

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I recall you posting about your weekend away with a gf @Anastasia Enjoy!!

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Happy Birthday weekend @WIP

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Thank you lovely @Eve7 !! xx

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@WIP wrote:

No, just brunch with Mum. I get very down each year around my birthday.


@WIP I've just seen this...so your birthday might be today? I hope it goes well and you have some happy moments... Thinking of you and sending hugs and birthday wishes 💙

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