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Changing meds

Changing meds

Hi. I battled MDD & acute anxiety nearly all of my adult life. I've been on numerous different SSRIs, SRNIs, antipsychotics, tried rTMS & ECT. Am addicted to a benzo for my anxiety.

I am in the process of swapping out from a SRNI to a MAOI and the wash out period is hell. I really don't think I'm going to make it. This is the darkest place I have ever been.
I have no family support, honestly no friends, not able to work & are completely isolated.

i don't feel my medical team actually care much anymore, they are overwhelmed by new clients because of covid.

i hardly sleep, but the last thing in my mind before I do, is how much I want to die. It's the first thought of the day when I wake up.

what if this new medication doesn't work either??

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Sweet L these are to brighten up your room and hopefully your mood. Honestly so so proud of you being there doing what it takes to turn the corner. Love you sweet @WIP

Excited to hear about your day today 🏈✔️😁

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Hi @Anastasia

Thank you for the flowers - they certainly do brighten up my room.

How's your boy going being at home.

I hope you get to have a restful weekend, so you can fend off the last of your infection. xx

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So far so good thank you @WIP 🤞🙏💞

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Very glad to hear that @Anastasia 💜

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@WIP 🌺🌸❣️

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@Anastasia I hope being back at work goes ok for you this week. 🦋💖❣️

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Thinking of you @WIP sending love x

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Oh gorgeous, thanks for checking in when you've got so much going on yourself @Anastasia

I'm worried about you and really, really hope that your boys situation improves a little bit soon to ease your concern and own worry. Please reach out to us if you need anything. I'm glad you received some helpful support from the Sane Chat service y'day. It is frustrating that it sometimes isn't available when you need it straight away. But good on you for persevering.

Look after yourself the best you can.

Lots of love and big hugs 🤗❤️🤗

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Checking in on you @WIP ,

How's everything with you sweetheart?

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Hi gorgeous lady @Anastasia

How are you going my dear friend? Is your boy back in hospital? I know how difficult that is, but he'll be receiving round the clock care and safer. Still doesn't make your pain any easier though.....which I know is so hard on you.

Thank you for checking in - you're so kind and thoughtful. I'm doing well coming off the anti anxiety med I was taking and it's been replaced with one no where near as strong and have started tapering that down already too. This has to be down slowly over time, but we've got a finishing date to work towards. Starting a new AD today, so hopefully no nasty immediate side effects. The plan is to go home Tuesday. I'm sleeping a bit better, and that makes the world of difference. There's a few other patients that we have a chat when we see each other, and that human interaction feels so good! There's also some very ill patients here (a variety of different ages) and that can make me feel sad. But also grateful that my diagnosis isn't the same. Mixed emotions always circling around.

Have to develop a routine for when I go home, so I don't fall backwards. That's my homework over the weekend.

Always in my thoughts @Anastasia xx 💞

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