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Changing meds

Changing meds

Hi. I battled MDD & acute anxiety nearly all of my adult life. I've been on numerous different SSRIs, SRNIs, antipsychotics, tried rTMS & ECT. Am addicted to a benzo for my anxiety.

I am in the process of swapping out from a SRNI to a MAOI and the wash out period is hell. I really don't think I'm going to make it. This is the darkest place I have ever been.
I have no family support, honestly no friends, not able to work & are completely isolated.

i don't feel my medical team actually care much anymore, they are overwhelmed by new clients because of covid.

i hardly sleep, but the last thing in my mind before I do, is how much I want to die. It's the first thought of the day when I wake up.

what if this new medication doesn't work either??

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You’re a lovely person @Emelia8 never a burden.

💖🤗💖

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Morning @Anastasia

I hope all works out with your boys new support worker today. Will you be coming home from work early, or was he up and about out of bed by the time you left this morning.
💞🦋🐾

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I can't cope anymore - the physical pain, the loneliness, the uncontrollable crying everyday and the challenges of complex major depressive disorder - treatment resistant. If my prognosis is I can be treated, what's the point? I'm struggling today to find a reason

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@WIP ... never give up. Holly and I are sitting with you and Levi today 🐶

Waves to @Anastasia too, who I hope can work from home this afternoon 👋

Emelia 💞

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Thank you @Emelia8 and Holly.

It's been a few very tough days and I'm feeling defeated.

Plus, I don't want to see my pdoc on Wednesday before DBT class, as I know he'll upset me as he usually does. Turning up to class is a struggle as it is - some of the content can be very triggering. I don't think I'll cope with the added stress.
Im thinking of cancelling and just emailing his consulting rooms when I'm ready to be admitted in hopefully a fortnight's time. My GP has said she'll help out with scripts if needed.

ive been in tears since I woke this morning - this is an awful way to live.

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I'm here too dear @WIP

I am sorry it's another difficult day. I am working from home so will have this screen open in the background to keep checking on you, hello to @Emelia8 too

Love you both xox

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@Anastasia @WIP 🌷🌻💞

Emelia

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@WIP @Emelia8

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Hi @Anastasia I to a having a day of it, just reaching out, nice and sunny here just wish you my best glad so glad all of you guys are in my head space today.

Clawde is great full for our Forum Thankyou, on a day off today I hate my job most days but am thankful It keeps my mind off my dramas that Meds have not any answer or probably even been thought of yet,

just tagging my beautiful freinds that saved me hugely last week

not struggling just grinding @Former-Member @TAB @Appleblossom @Snowie @Emelia8 @Adge

will update later, had a text from the another sister, I supposed it's called a sibling all about ........ love from Clawde but my health is well my Dogs and Cats and Birds are Fed and appear happy it's just my F### head space but will keep trying Thankyou again everyone you guys where there when I needed you most love from Clawde

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Thank you lovely @Anastasia

I don't know what I'd do without the two of you. You are both so special in my life. @Emelia8

❣️❣️

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