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Changing meds

WIPSenior Contributor15 July 2020, 11:14 am AEST

Changing meds

Hi. I battled MDD & acute anxiety nearly all of my adult life. I've been on numerous different SSRIs, SRNIs, antipsychotics, tried rTMS & ECT. Am addicted to a benzo for my anxiety.

I am in the process of swapping out from a SRNI to a MAOI and the wash out period is hell. I really don't think I'm going to make it. This is the darkest place I have ever been.
I have no family support, honestly no friends, not able to work & are completely isolated.

i don't feel my medical team actually care much anymore, they are overwhelmed by new clients because of covid.

i hardly sleep, but the last thing in my mind before I do, is how much I want to die. It's the first thought of the day when I wake up.

what if this new medication doesn't work either??

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Emelia8Senior Contributor17 Feb 2021, 10:55 pm AEDT

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@outlander 💖

@WIP 💗

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AnastasiaSenior Contributor18 Feb 2021, 7:01 am AEDT

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Thinking of you @WIP

🙏🐾🐕💕

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BowSenior Contributor18 Feb 2021, 7:12 am AEDT

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Hope you managed some sleep last night @WIP and you can think a little clearer about what you need to do.

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SnowieSenior Contributor18 Feb 2021, 9:03 am AEDT

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Good morning @Bow @WIP @Anastasia @Emelia8 and anyone else around.

Hoping today is a little better for you all.

Love and hugs 💞💞

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WIPSenior Contributor18 Feb 2021, 11:01 am AEDT

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Good Morning @Anastasia @Bow @Emelia8 @Lee82 @outlander @Snowie

Thank you all for your support, time and advice last night. I slept till 1am and then just drifted in and out of very light sleep till morning. So not feeling great still - I just wish I could get some decent sleep as a starting point.

The only expectation I'm putting on myself today is to make it through the day. I'm broken and still can't think straight about the decision I have to make. I know I need to go into hospital, but not trusting this pdoc and being under his care is the problem.

I hope you all get some sparkle in your day - you all deserve it!!

Love L

🦋💞💞🦋

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Emelia8Senior Contributor18 Feb 2021, 11:19 am AEDT

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@WIP 💞🌻🌺🐶

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Lee82Senior Contributor18 Feb 2021, 5:26 pm AEDT

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Thinking of you @WIP . Give it time hun.
hoping tonight you are able to get some better sleep. ❤️

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WIPSenior Contributor18 Feb 2021, 5:36 pm AEDT

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Thank you @Lee82

Just had a zoom appt with my new psychologist - she's great and I'm so very lucky to have found her. Feeling mentally drained.....but I know I won't sleep well again.
I hope you have had a good day.

🌸💖

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Lee82Senior Contributor18 Feb 2021, 5:39 pm AEDT

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I am so glad to hear you find her good hun. That's fantastic. One less worry off your shoulders.
@WIP I understand just how drained you must be feeling especially after speaking to a new doc.
take is easy tonight babe and perhaps a little self care. Sending you hugs my friend. 💗

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Shaz51Senior Contributor18 Feb 2021, 5:46 pm AEDT

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hope you have a better night`s sleep tonight too @WIP

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