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Changing meds

Changing meds

Hi. I battled MDD & acute anxiety nearly all of my adult life. I've been on numerous different SSRIs, SRNIs, antipsychotics, tried rTMS & ECT. Am addicted to a benzo for my anxiety.

I am in the process of swapping out from a SRNI to a MAOI and the wash out period is hell. I really don't think I'm going to make it. This is the darkest place I have ever been.
I have no family support, honestly no friends, not able to work & are completely isolated.

i don't feel my medical team actually care much anymore, they are overwhelmed by new clients because of covid.

i hardly sleep, but the last thing in my mind before I do, is how much I want to die. It's the first thought of the day when I wake up.

what if this new medication doesn't work either??

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Here for you @WIP xox

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I'm at a loss @Anastasia

I don't know hat to do...

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So sorry to hear what happened with the psychiatrist @WIP. I imagine that would have been really disappointing We're sitting here with you while you process

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I am thinking that your new therapist may be abls to assist you finding a really good fit pdoc? Could you call her office and start that ball rolling?

@WIP

Totally feel for you, I just got off the phone from My boys Dr's secretary and frustrating is an understatement. Hang in there L, you are worth it and I really have a good feeling that your therapist WILL HELP you all you have to do is ask...

Let me know how you go,

love and hugs to Levi too xox

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Thanks for taking the time to reply with all you have going on @Anastasia


Im broken, I've asked for help so many times, only to be let down again and again. I had to leave my DBT class during the last break, I was an emotional mess.

I honestly don't know what to do - I can't function, I can't sleep, medical ppl turn me away. I can't do this on my own. I have no access to my anti anxiety meds - that can put your body into seizure.

I have an emergency zoom meeting with my new psychologist in the morning - at least she's trying

I don't think I can do this

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Yes you absolutely can. I am right here with you @WIP

So proud of you for setting up an appointment for tomorrow. See - you've got this, and she has your back too, so you are NOT ALONE I promise xox

It doesn't feel like it, but I can assure you you have.

I am on the computer all day so totally here for you.

In the mean time sending you an abundance of strenght, hugs, love and cuddles for Levi.

Perhaps go and boil the kettle that will give me time to grab something for lunch and a cuppa and meet you back here for a catch up...how does that sound?

Perhaps @Emelia8 @Snowie @Bow are around and might join us?

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Hi @WIP ... just dropping by to let you know that I am here supporting you as well. I know you can do this. And you have many friends here just willing you on. I'm about to go and have a lie down now for half an hour. But I can come back in about an hour and sit with you over a cuppa if you like. I'm sure @Anastasia would love to join us then too. After a solid day on your computer Myboy ... you will need a break.

@WIP ... well done for arranging a meeting with your psychologist tomorrow. Yes .. she is trying, and she will be a very big asset to you. If my memory is right I think it was her who recommended the pdoc you saw on Monday? I'm sure she will have other suggestions, and she may even be able to push to get you in soon, rather than be on the end of a long wait list. Fingers crossed.

I will see you for a cuppa around 3pm, if you're around then. Cuddles for Levi, and a reassuring hug to you L.

Emelia 💞

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@Emelia8 @Anastasia @Jupiter

Im am trying so hard. Asking for help.

im exhauated being turned away. I'll see what my new psychologist says tomorrow - if not helpful, I'm outta here. Can't handle more hurt.'

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Yes you are trying so hard @WIP more than you should have to.

I am so sorry, but I am walking with you xox

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Okay its time for a cuppa I think. Yes thanks @Bow ... I had a nice nap. Just up and ready for a cuppa now.

How about you @WIP @Anastasia @Eve7 @Bow ... are you ready for a cuppa too?

Perhaps @Former-Member may feel up to joining us too? Tagging you here since you dont have a thread of your own. Hope thats okay. Thinking of you Pippi after your Mums passing. I'm thinking the second pic may be one you might particularly like. We can all have a nice cuppa with friends here as you pay tribute to your Mum. 💔

Emelia 💞😊🌸

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