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Changing meds

Changing meds

Hi. I battled MDD & acute anxiety nearly all of my adult life. I've been on numerous different SSRIs, SRNIs, antipsychotics, tried rTMS & ECT. Am addicted to a benzo for my anxiety.

I am in the process of swapping out from a SRNI to a MAOI and the wash out period is hell. I really don't think I'm going to make it. This is the darkest place I have ever been.
I have no family support, honestly no friends, not able to work & are completely isolated.

i don't feel my medical team actually care much anymore, they are overwhelmed by new clients because of covid.

i hardly sleep, but the last thing in my mind before I do, is how much I want to die. It's the first thought of the day when I wake up.

what if this new medication doesn't work either??

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I'm sorry about the terrible run you had with GPs, but the one you have found sounds wonderful and very trustworthy. I think it's time you opened up to her and let her know the missing pieces and she'll be able to help you further

@Bow

If you had of thought of it, as she'll take your phone calls, maybe you could have asked for her advice regarding the comm MH appt tomorrow.

When is your next appt with your GP? You can let comm MH know about this and the regular appointments you have booked and how comfortable you feel working with her. That could help keep you out of hospital? In addition, you've made it very clear on the phone today you won't be going to hospital. Treat 2mrw as a formality and find out if there is a regular psychologist you can be booked in to see, considering the one you emailed today with your notes isn't equipped to cope. I know it's difficult when I'm distressed, but you need to try and be in control during this appointment and get the outcome or as close to the outcome you want & deserve.

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Thanks @Former-Member You've been so proactive and kind towards me - thank you.

I think I might book a time in for tomorrow. Then I'm committed to attend. I'm a bit emotional this afternoon and honestly, are just waiting for the day to be over.
In some ways I really hate daylight savings because it doesn't get dark till later and I have to stay up later. My puppy doesn't settle till it's at least dark - he normally gets a second wind around 10pm, just like a toddler.

My Cavoodle, without much Oodle...

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Thanks @WIP

im seeing my GP tomorrow morning, my psych has requested that I do, which I understand and have agreed to do. And I think as long as I have the supports in place (who knows maybe the comm mh team will pick me up? Maybe my psych has spoken to them about it... I also expressed my frustration over the phone to them about being seen by them before and then nothing, so maybe they will do something this time... Or at least review my meds)and a plan, I'm really hoping that my psych will keep seeing me. I waited a while to see her as she was highly recommended and I do really like her.

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It all sounds pretty positive @Bow

Good Luck 🤞🌸

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I'm so happy to be able to help @WIP😊

And thank you so much for blessing us with a beautiful photo of your cute puppy! He's adorable 😍

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Thinking of you today @WIP

💜💚💜

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Thanks @Former-Member

Not doing so good this morning. It's a terrible start to the day when you are in tears 5 minutes after waking up. This happens frequently, and just goes on for the day.

I can't wait to see this new psychiatrist and talk to her about my medication, because I'm convinced that one of the night time ones to help me sleep,

contributes to this. It's an anti psychotic, and mixed with my anti anxiety, it helps me sleep. But I'm not psychotic!!

Im having trouble this morning calming down and finding things to be positive about, or doing some self soothing activities.

Im glad you appreciated the photo of little Levi.

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Thank you lovely @Eve7

How did you find your first week back at work?

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Hey @WIP, I'm sorry to hear You said before that you might book in a call with one of our counsellors today- did you end up doing that? If so, is that coming up soon?

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So far, so good @WIP

I’m doing recruitment, finished shortlisting, start interviews on Monday.

Very different to the past 10 months of my life.

💜💜💜

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