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Changing meds

Changing meds

Hi. I battled MDD & acute anxiety nearly all of my adult life. I've been on numerous different SSRIs, SRNIs, antipsychotics, tried rTMS & ECT. Am addicted to a benzo for my anxiety.

I am in the process of swapping out from a SRNI to a MAOI and the wash out period is hell. I really don't think I'm going to make it. This is the darkest place I have ever been.
I have no family support, honestly no friends, not able to work & are completely isolated.

i don't feel my medical team actually care much anymore, they are overwhelmed by new clients because of covid.

i hardly sleep, but the last thing in my mind before I do, is how much I want to die. It's the first thought of the day when I wake up.

what if this new medication doesn't work either??

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Hope your still here @WIP and can perhaps sort out what happened last night. Thinking of you 🤗💜

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Good Morning @Bow @Anastasia @Adge @Emelia8 @Snowie @Eve7 @outlander

Thanks for your care and concern last night. I didn't have a good night, plus little Levi was sick during the middle of the night (he's fine) so any quality sleep was near impossible. I had a very rough day y'day and the action of one of the moderators made it worse. I wonder if I am welcome here or I am a burden on people.
I know we are supposed to call the crisis lines, but I can never get through to the SANE line & have had little success with the others. You, my friends here offer much more help.

I'm just trying to make it through each day on my own and it's very difficult with a complex mental

illness and irractic sleep patterns.

Im ok friends, well, I'm not really, but I'm here to battle another day. Going to hide under the doona and hope that I can drift off for a bit - body & foreheads aches from the fall the other week.

I know you are all battling your own demons, and I hope that you find some light in your days.

Love L xx

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I assure you @WIP that you are not a burden. We are here by choice, and try to support you because we want to. If any post or conversation (from any member) becomes distressing ... we can always step away. You have said nothing wrong.

I would urge you to email the managers about your concerns, and try to resolve any issues.

Please take care and try to get some rest today. Sorry Levi was not himself overnight, but relieved he seems fine now.

Sending some love your way.

Emelia 💞

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Hi @WIP , sorry you have gone through a rough time yesterday and last night. i just wanted to say that of course you are very welcome on the Forums... and its so positive you feel supported by your peers. Hoping today improves for you.

Kind regards

Traveller (mod)

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Sorry @WIP , I didn't get your tags my friend xxx but I am always with you

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Thank you @traveller

How do I email one of the SANE managers please?

I feel the situation last night could have been handled differently.

thanks,

WIP

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Hi @WIP the email address for Forums is team@saneforums.org but as i said before i will definately flag your previous chat. Everyone is welcome to discuss with Community Managers if they feel anything is not handled fairly or have concerns.. All the best.

Cheers Traveller

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Thank you @Emelia8

You are all my family and the last thing I want is to not be a part of the Sane forums.

I hope your treatment goes ok today and you take the time to rest afterwards if you need to.

Sending love back you way. I appreciate you so very much.

L

💞💞

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I just feel there was an overreaction, that added to my already heightened anxiety state @traveller

I've emailed similar things to moderators in the past and they've helped me work through my distress (including the moderator last night, who knows my story).

I'd really like to put this behind me/us, so I can continue to be apart of the forums, as I'm in a very vulnerable state right now, and the members help me out immensely.

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Letting you know I care about you very much @WIP

I am sorry you were hurt yesterday and that you haven’t slept well.

You are very valued here.

Lots of love

💙🤗💙

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