Changing meds

I used to be such a strong and capable person @Zoe7 . I've really lost my way in recent years and been stripped of my confidence. I'm a shadow of who I used to be (well not physically, due to the significant weight gain from the antipsychotic he put me on 😉).

I just don't know if I'll ever find my way again.

I'll have to keep reminding myself of the 'little ray of hope' I didn't have y'day. x

That's it Hon - you didn't have that yesterday but you have it today @WIP Keep hold of that little ray of sunshine - and I will keep reminding you of it too because it is a massive thing what you achieved today.

I fully understand the weight gain - the meds have done that for me too but I am more grateful that they have worked and so not too worried about the extra weight. I know I need to start regaining some physical fitness and strength back but my back issues severely hamper that too. I loved being in the pool but had to stop that because they were not open when I finished work. It was a very small pool with a small clientele - I cannot do big pools with too man people around. There is a smaller pool closer to me but it has after school swim sessions with kids so not a good option either. I also miss the beach and walking there with Tobes - very much looking forward to the warmer weather to be able to do that again too.

I am off to couch island to see if I can sleep Hon. Not sure when I will be able to check in again this week - very much depends how I get through tomorrow and how tired I am ...but will get your messages and will reply when I am able to. In the meantime keep that little bit of hope alive, do somethign special for yourself to reward what a massive thing you did today, how much strength and courage that took and that you are finally being heard. I am proud of you Hon - you got this

Hi @WIP I just read your message. Thanks for letting me know that your appointment went ok. I'm glad your psychiatrist agreed for you to try the medication that you've been on before. I really hope it works for you again.
I can imagine that you are feeling quite drained from your appointment. Crying can be very emotionally draining.
I hope you are able to sleep well.
Night night. 😴🌸🌺

Hi @WIP , that's good news that your psychiatrist agreed to the med that you prefer. Are you starting that today? Am keeping my fingers crossed that it works well for you 🙂 In the meantime, we are here to support you...

Good Morning @NatureLover

Nice to hear back from you 😊

Yep, start the new med this morning at an initial

low dose for 5 days, then double it after then.
Thamks for your well wishes and glad you will be here for me if I need support along with way - very kind of you.

One day at a time & hopefully a little sprinkle of improvement each day too.

I'm definitely hoping for a little sprinkle of improvement every day for you @WIP 🙂

Thanks @NatureLover

Me too! Just a sprinkle will help to keep me hopeful 😀

Hi @Zoe7

Just wanted to quickly touch base to say I hope you made it through work ok and are feeling better.

x

Made it through work but exhausted @WIP I really hoped I would be asleep by now but unfortunately not happening so far. Going to try again soon.

I hope you are doing as okay as you can be. Just think - one more day down until you start the new med so hopefully one more day closer to some relief 👍💕

Hey @WIP !

Sorry I have been MIA the last two days - just inundated with work (enjoyable though). Working from home makes days and time blend into each other so that it disappears only to quickly. I love being busy. It means I don't get up to mischief.

I downloaded an awesome app - 'smiling mind'. I hate meditation but after understanding the science behind it and that you can change your brain, i've been giving it a go. It has definitely been easier for me to drop to sleep. I'm going to try it for about a month to see if there are any significant differences. I am much more open to mindfulness and meditation now.

@WIP , I know you have mentioned some challenges, but can you also name some achievements? Even something simple. Did you take Levi to the dog park?

Looking to hear from you,

BPDSurvivor