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Changing meds

Changing meds

Hi. I battled MDD & acute anxiety nearly all of my adult life. I've been on numerous different SSRIs, SRNIs, antipsychotics, tried rTMS & ECT. Am addicted to a benzo for my anxiety.

I am in the process of swapping out from a SRNI to a MAOI and the wash out period is hell. I really don't think I'm going to make it. This is the darkest place I have ever been.
I have no family support, honestly no friends, not able to work & are completely isolated.

i don't feel my medical team actually care much anymore, they are overwhelmed by new clients because of covid.

i hardly sleep, but the last thing in my mind before I do, is how much I want to die. It's the first thought of the day when I wake up.

what if this new medication doesn't work either??

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Good Morning @Former-Member

Thanks for the cuppa - that'll be my 2nd for the morning, which is most unusual for me. I usually only have one a day, but I'm very tired/groggy this morning from not sleeping well and taking medication in the middle of the night because I couldn't get to sleep!! It was a big day yesterday, and my brain was just running wild last night, going over everthing etc. And now this morning, I feel like my brain hasn't kicked into gear yet. Very frustrating!

I'm really sorry to hear about your car. I'd be so disappointed too. I'm more sorry to hear about your panic attack. They are awful, I know. Good on you though for confronting the other driver.

I do hope today is easier for you

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I enjoy walking on the beach in autumn/winter.
I hope your wrist is healing well. @Eve7
I am cleaning out a lot of stuff that I've collected over the years. Lots in the rubbish and lots going to the opp shop. I clean out a certain area, then find more stuff to clean out. 😬😩 Resting in between.
Need a shower too. Very humid today.
🥰

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Sure is humid @Former-Member . I’m cleaning out too but it’s never ending.

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I had the same with sleep. Too many thoughts going around.

I hope you can have a nap later and I really hope today is easier for you. @WIP
Might cook a roast soon. Been putting it off for a while. Need to cook it before use by date.
I'm glad things seem to be better with your mum. She sounds similar to mine. Very helpful and tries to understand, but doesn't know what to say or how to react.
I haven't seen mine for ages, too hard. Long story. Not easy keeping my distance, but I had to. I would end up an emotional mess after visiting. Plus, would bump into other family.
Not strong enough to go there.
💖

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It sure is @Eve7 🥺

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i am about to go for a quick walk down to the shops if I can drag myself away from the air conditioning @Former-Member @WIP

Anyone want to join me?

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Hi @Eve7

Thank you for the invite, but I'm buggered this afternoon....have a raging headache from not sleeping well last night.

Enjoy your walk if you go 😊

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take care hun. I'm heading off now.

@WIP

xox

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Don't think about how long it will take to heal or recover. Just keep putting one foot in front of the other. Recovery is not about figuring everything out; it's about having the will to take another step forward......

This just popped up in my 'daily motivational quotes' app. SO APPROPRIATE for how I'm feeling right at the moment.

Just thought I'd share ❤️

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WOW! How appropriate was that quote! Thanks for sharing.

Im back from my 40 minute walk which only took 37 minutes today. I’ll go further tomorrow as it was too hot to extend it today.

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